maddame

Mad Dame this week:

I hate the sound of things dropping!! they bounce, and they bounce hard.\
they make a bad noise.
+ i drop things all the time.

I like projects. I like starting them....i like starting ALOT of them all at once! Fresh projects are the best! but.. don't rely on me to finish ALL of them!! hehe or on time... maybe one day!!

My hobbies include: Making and designing clothes and stuff!!! i'm getting better!! i like to garden, but i haven't tried it yet!!! i'm going to plant my BEAN soon!
I like the computer. I wish i had some more cool designing programs. But i don't like reading instructions. I just like to be told. I don't read the instructions to put together the clothes i make, i just guess and it all works out swell!!
I like to take photos. But usually the rolls of film die in my drawer, i got heaps i swear!! I like editing stuff, i have been doing a few tutorials here and there to see what new techniques i can pick up.OooOOoo I like to Paint. At the moment i am 'Freelancing' a painting. I'm totally making it up as i go, not being afraid if its crap or not. I've given it heaps of textures, which is different to what i have been painting lately ( smooth vector shit)
I like to play dress ups. I always have when i was little and i still do!!! i get more dressed up when i'm going to stay at home and do nothing than i would if i was to go to a party. I like to go to parties if its completely full of people that knoew me and haven't seen me for ages and scream when they see me, that feels pretty cool, and i want to throw alcohol over everyone and leave the party so dirty and trashed and get past the point of being tired where i want to stay dirty all day and eat pizza in the morning! Note to self, don't smoke drugs and be the first to pass out at your own party lol it was swell though.

I like forests.
I like hot weather.
i like camping.
i like dirty camping
i like i go walk by myself bare footed.
when i'm all dirty and barefooted i feel free and i want to be naked!!!! but that man behind the tree is spying on me!!! i like that too.
i like fresh water rivers better than the salty sea or pools!
when i go to the beach i like to bury myself into the sand. Especially when its so hot against my skin.
i prefer not to be tanned. i don't like tan lines and now i am stuck with them forever!
I like thunderstorms. But only when shared with someone you love.
Most of all i like warm thunderstorms. and again i want to be free of my clothes.
Nature makes me feel more attractive and natural.
I think that just about every time i have been out in nature camping or anything if i took a walk by myself i would have found a fresh place and layed around undressed. odd. i don't know why, feels good!! so don't follow me!!

Right now! I'm enjoying the song Rock Lobster but only the beat, its so hot.
andd....... I finally saw the start of Green Day's film clip to Jesus of Surburbia. Coz i would always turn on the tv and see it half way so i didn't know the full story! alll well.

i was really stinky today. and sticky. i think it was my bloody hair! BUT not to worry i had a shower and washed my dumb hair!! wish i could dye it, but i just got a job and have no idea when i bloody start. fags.

From Santa this christmas i would like to be given nice smelly girly stuff and candles coz they beat anything, I still have all the stuff i was given last year from my brothers and it was lasted a whole year. They are all nostalgic of the times i spent getting to know Leigh in January! So maybe some new ones will give more Nostalgic times for this Holidays spent with Leigh too.

News years are cool. They always feel fresh. don't feel it until i start writing "06"

I plan to try find some filters for my camera. I don't buy a new camera. i like mine. which was my grandads. i think it would e too hard to try change to a new one. nooooooooooooooooooooo. it does the job. hehe the thread on the lenses are stuffed. but i forgive it. its kinda from dropping it a lot lol. but its a durable thing!! OH YEAH!!! i keep forgeting I want to buy a medium format cam!! i have to find out what film type this old camera takes!!! older than a brownie! Older than the cheese in your beard!

New things make me feel cool. I'm not materialistic. I remember when i went through a stage where i just wanted to get rid of everything i owned. but i guess that is an unfinished project too!

I've been wondering lately, what i have done for other people. Have i done much, i think i am a nice person....still. Well i guess i am making a dress for Julie's 18th birthday for her Rock n roll party!! and making one for me too!!
ummm...thats the only nice thing i can think of that i've done for anyone lately.
oh i gave Leigh a massage! that was pretty sweet.

I hav this little purple rock. i by the way i like rocks. i don't know why. but if u look in one of my boxes or cupboards you will find little carts full of rocks that i have found. all very different and have something nice about each one. some little obsession i have had since i was little and picking up all the pretty pebbles of someone's nana's driveway.
anyways this rock is pretty, it is purple and smooth. Leigh bought it for me from a market when we were coming back from sydney. it was hot and my shoulders went pink.
But i like this rock coz if you put it on a certain angle you can spin it around when you bored. and when you don't touch it for a while it goes really nice and cold and i lay in bed and run it down my forhead and noise and under my eyes.
it feels really nice.

umm...i have also been hearing scary noises outside. coz i think i am old enough not to have to play my music all night to distract me from scary sounds... hehe i think i stopped that in like highschool. but its like tapping at my window and i am stuck frozen coz my bed is against the window and i cant look out coz the boogie man will see me coz his eyes are adjusted to the dark and mine aren't!! ARGHHH SO SCARRRYYYYY

I watched Grease last night.
Made me really happy.
i like the way the clothes make them look really thin and nice.
i'll try it again one day.
i wish i had some tight pedal pushers!!!

i had a pair once but i went to Luna Park in year 7 and when on the GRAVTRONE and it was hot and i felt soooooo sick and i ate an ice cream and it was melting and it was watermelon colour and it fell onto the ground. before i had a bite. i was sad.
i get sad when my food falls over.
thats when i like to get a hug.

i like hugs.
coz i am little and i can fit right into an enclosed body. mmm its snug and warm.
well i have to wait until saturday to have a nice big lushious warm lovely big big BIG hug!!!

xoxox