i am on edge, to put it mildly, i am some sort of timebomb atm.
hopefully by xmas i wil be sane.......................................
i thinking im having some sort of alcohol i withdrawals, since wed in a bid to find other ways to relive my stress, i have drunk very little, 3 beers sat lunch and a few yesterday.
no joy was found in them, only a bitter taste.
remember your 1st ever beer? yup that taste.
so atm my body feels like my bones are eating themselves, drugs dont have this kind of feeling.
i honestly didn't think i drank that much, mayeb its the binge drinking of late, who knows.
i have lost my creativity and i suppose in turn my path, i have no spark anymore, this is sad because it means a end to a few possible career paths.
times change, people change, some things remain the same. sometimes its these things that remain the same yet are seen with different eyes that cause us to evaluate our lives.
its time to evaluate, i have some old friends visitng, i have soem family soon too, maybe hey can help, maybe.
