mackenzye

This is such bull shitmy heart is so fucking torn right nowI've cut again I honestly didn't think that would happenbut it has. I'm in tears and just can't stop cryingmy life feels like its falling apart at the seam and I am helpless to stop it. I have to find a new psychiatrist the one that I have now doesn't listen to a fucking word I sayI just want all my pieces to fitbut I am afraid that they weren't meant tolike maybe I was supposed to just suck at lifelike I'm some joke for everyone to fucking learn fromI just feel like every move I make to better a situation or do the right thing fucks me in the end. I've been fed the pills they prescribed but that changes nothing I still feel like shit. Maybe it's cause I'm fucking shit! Whatever I just can't do this shit anymore my family can just hate me I really cant stop them. Its so hard to think that all of these people around you that are blood could be wrong about youthat you're the right oneyou cant be weird or odd your just you and an individual but not to them they say you're a sinnera fuck upoh Randi find Jesusoh randi he forgives everyone for everythingwell I fucking don't!!! I can't forgive being fucking molested or beaten time and fucking time again by mother and father!!!! Fuck that!!! FUCK YOUR FAG ASS FUCKING CRUSIFIED FUCK OF A LORD!!! LET HIM EAT SHIT AND DIE AGAIN!!! HEY I GOT AN IDEA LETS PUT FAITH IN SOMETHING WE HAVE ABSOLUTLY NO MOTHERFUCKING PROOF OF HEY YEAH AND LETS NOT BE EDUCATED IN OTHER FUCKING FAITHS TO FIND SIMILARITIES .LET ALONE OUR OWNILL JUST TAKE THE FAG ASS PREACHERS WORD FOR IT.NUDITY IS WRONG!!! WELL FUCK BAG CHRISTIAN NATION IF NUDITY IS SO FUCKING WRONG WE WOULD ALL BE MADE WITH KEN AND BARBIE DOLL CROTCHES. SO FUCK OFFALSO IT SAYS IN "YOUR BIBLE" THAT WE WERE ALL MADE IN HIS FUCKING IMAGE SO WHAT ABOUT OUR IMAGE ARE WE SUPPOSED TO BE SO FUCKING ASHAMED OF FUCK WADS!!!! Sorry people I'm just having a really hard day ill be fine in a few hours I just hate fucking speaking with ignorant peoplethat get pissed off when you ask questions about the faith they are supposed to know the ins and outs of.whatever it will never change