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So today I changed my usual routine up slightly. My routine usually consists of work, sleep, lazing around, chilling with friends, and uni. Thats my week day in day out. Today I donated to a charity as i was leaving Coles (It's a supermarket in Australia). And i didn't just donate my petty change of 55 cents. I stopped, pulled out my wallet and found the last note i had in there which was a $5 note. This made me feel good, knowing that that $5 note will hopefully be used on research that one day could eventually help millions of individuals.

Another thing i did today, which I actually have been doing for the last two weeks and I did today was worked out. I purchased a protein powder shake thingy so I can finally have the daily amount of protein I need after i work out. I really do want to improve my body shape. I guess I would be slightly round, I don't have much of a tone once the shirt is off but when im wearing clothes, you don't notice it much. I look normal, but when i'm out and about with mates at a pool, or at the beach. I stand out a lot more. Majority of the time, my friends would receive all the attention from girls or "pick up" cause of their aesthetics. And i'm quite sick of that. I want to be recognised, there is nothing wrong with my personality (or so i think) but the appearance factor plays a role. This is probably one of the reasons why i want to improve my body shape. That and i want to get a wicked awesome chest piece done which i have started designing, but i can't do it till my chest looks more toned up. Otherwise, it just will look shitty.

I know appearances shouldn't be everything. But let's face it, a large population in the world do play the appearance factor when they are attracted to someone. Well this is what i have seen, so prove me wrong otherwise, but this is what i have noticed. I want to look good when i go to the beach and that is why i have started this working out. I haven't seen too much of an improvement except that my biceps have hardened immensly. Im glad on that factor!

By this you can probably tell my love-life hasn't been too shit hot. I been single for a very long time, and only the occasional hook-up. I got with a girl who made me feel good about myself, but she moved onto someone else quite quickly. Another guy who was much more toned in that field. That situation didn't make me feel too good. I try not to doubt myself, and i don't majority of the time, but the whole self image does get to me from time to time and i guess i just want to put a stop to it.

By know i have realised all i have achieved thus far is ramble on with poor structure in my blog writing, but im down with that, and too lazy to review and change. I'm just typing straight from the heart and head and not really looking back at what i have already covered (so if i repeat myself, my bad).

Another issue i have found with this working out thing is a lack of motivation. I struggle to stay motivated because results usually follow after a few months of working out, not just a couple of weeks. I would love to hear input from anyone who reads about any motivation secrets or stories. I'd love to know how you stay motivated in situations like this or anything that can be related back to this.

Thanks for reading my crazy rants ... You are now one step closer to knowing the on-goings of my mind