You know what? FUCK THIS SHIT!
I was born a survivor. This scar represents the 50% chance I had of DYING at the age of 1 month. I'm stronger than this, damnit! This might be the brownies talking (not weed brownies, but brownies nonetheless (aka sugar)), but everything that's been occurring has been showing me one thing: life is too short to be miserable.
I don't have a job but I don't want a dead end one. I want to support myself doing what I love. I WILL make a name for myself with this music thing this year. I HAVE TO; can't accept any other option.
All of these negative emotions I'm feeling right now are fine, but I can transform them! That's what a good writer does, I have that talent! I refuse to scrap all my hard work, effort, years of sacrifice, etc. I can do this. I put my grandfather in a song, that should be more motivation- make sure it's not in vain. I must accomplish my dreams in his memory.
As for the other situation, I can't really speak on it out of respect for the parties involved and my own emotional protection. Yes, it hurts...very much sometimes. But I can say this: it was a new experience and it helped me grow. And I've grown A LOT on SG, trust me.
By the end of the year, I want to have landed on the cover of at least one music mag and have had at least one interview. I want my new mixtape to exceed 5000 downloads. I want to make money doing what I love and I don't want my mother to ever worry about next month's rent ever, EVER again.
Fuck being realistic and fuck allowing the cyclical nature of life consume me. I have dreams to accomplish.
Let's accomplish ours together,
James
I was born a survivor. This scar represents the 50% chance I had of DYING at the age of 1 month. I'm stronger than this, damnit! This might be the brownies talking (not weed brownies, but brownies nonetheless (aka sugar)), but everything that's been occurring has been showing me one thing: life is too short to be miserable.
I don't have a job but I don't want a dead end one. I want to support myself doing what I love. I WILL make a name for myself with this music thing this year. I HAVE TO; can't accept any other option.
All of these negative emotions I'm feeling right now are fine, but I can transform them! That's what a good writer does, I have that talent! I refuse to scrap all my hard work, effort, years of sacrifice, etc. I can do this. I put my grandfather in a song, that should be more motivation- make sure it's not in vain. I must accomplish my dreams in his memory.
As for the other situation, I can't really speak on it out of respect for the parties involved and my own emotional protection. Yes, it hurts...very much sometimes. But I can say this: it was a new experience and it helped me grow. And I've grown A LOT on SG, trust me.
By the end of the year, I want to have landed on the cover of at least one music mag and have had at least one interview. I want my new mixtape to exceed 5000 downloads. I want to make money doing what I love and I don't want my mother to ever worry about next month's rent ever, EVER again.
Fuck being realistic and fuck allowing the cyclical nature of life consume me. I have dreams to accomplish.
Let's accomplish ours together,
James
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barely:
I'll take you out for a drink some time when I get back from SF to make up for the birthday dinner I can't be attending tonight. My apologies, good sir!
phucko:
hbd