Life as of 1/19/10
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+I don't think I've ever felt this way about someone before you Magic. How curious that the heart can long for someone whom I have yet to meet. I hope we do soon. Please don't think or feel like I am pressuring you into anything. I know you need time- take as much as you need. Just know that the gravity of how much I care for and about you is immense.
+NAMM was pretty cool. You can check out the videos from it at MECHAMECCA because I'm too lazy to upload all of'em to SG haha.
-My grandfather had another stroke yesterday. It doesn't look good. I kind of feel guilty because I've only met him a couple of times in my life and know that I am probably a lot less upset than my mother is. Or that I would probably be a lot more upset if it were Oma (my grandma) because I've spent my whole life with her. Admitting this makes me feel like a bad person. I am still upset though.
-I wish I could live in the moment. But how is someone who is goal-driven and oriented supposed to do that? I can never tell. Perhaps one day.
-I love music, but sometimes I get a sense of how empty and meaningless what I do is. It's a very frightening thing to feel.
+Today, I shall write my goals of the year. One of which is to truly enjoy, embrace and live through my sexual nature. I feel like most of my life, I have felt guilty about it and tried to ignore it or shove it aside; cease people from knowing that it's such a significant part of my life. Why? The reasons, I feel, are many and ultimately my fault. But not matter how this makes me look or how this sounds, I truly feel like being a member of SG has helped me grow immensely as an individual- especially when embracing this aspect of my identity and self. Thank you.
Though we may have not met, a friend is a friend and I love you all.
J
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+I don't think I've ever felt this way about someone before you Magic. How curious that the heart can long for someone whom I have yet to meet. I hope we do soon. Please don't think or feel like I am pressuring you into anything. I know you need time- take as much as you need. Just know that the gravity of how much I care for and about you is immense.
+NAMM was pretty cool. You can check out the videos from it at MECHAMECCA because I'm too lazy to upload all of'em to SG haha.
-My grandfather had another stroke yesterday. It doesn't look good. I kind of feel guilty because I've only met him a couple of times in my life and know that I am probably a lot less upset than my mother is. Or that I would probably be a lot more upset if it were Oma (my grandma) because I've spent my whole life with her. Admitting this makes me feel like a bad person. I am still upset though.
-I wish I could live in the moment. But how is someone who is goal-driven and oriented supposed to do that? I can never tell. Perhaps one day.
-I love music, but sometimes I get a sense of how empty and meaningless what I do is. It's a very frightening thing to feel.
+Today, I shall write my goals of the year. One of which is to truly enjoy, embrace and live through my sexual nature. I feel like most of my life, I have felt guilty about it and tried to ignore it or shove it aside; cease people from knowing that it's such a significant part of my life. Why? The reasons, I feel, are many and ultimately my fault. But not matter how this makes me look or how this sounds, I truly feel like being a member of SG has helped me grow immensely as an individual- especially when embracing this aspect of my identity and self. Thank you.
Though we may have not met, a friend is a friend and I love you all.
J
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Barely: Hahaha, fo' sho. I'm excited for it! I think it'll be fun.
Wifer: Why is he not there? Or is this old news and I just have no idea?