machiavel

Being in Florida has made me think about a number of things....It has been 20 years since I graduated High School, and 20 since I was 18........Makes me wonder have I changed? I thought I had changed tremedously, but sometimes I am not sure.......I wonder, if I have indeed changed, is it for the best?......Time moves so fast........I also wonder where do I fit? I seem to be outside of every group of people I come in contact with............I am around all these people but I do not really belong........I am also witnessing accidents these days......On my Birthday I was driving and saw a car spin off the road into a ditch at 80 miles an hour....... I was the only one that stopped, I thought I was going to have to administer medical aid, as I walked to the car from the side of the road, I quickly ran through the CPR procedures in my head , luckily no one was hurt.....trying to help made me feel somewhat purposeful, which helped me in a somewhat sad birthday....(I want to thank all who wished me well on my Birthday, It was great to see 28 messages It made me feel good)....I saw Farenheit 911 today, and a woman fell right in front of me hitting her head on my leg, I tried to help there too.............For those of you that know me(and I say "those of you" thinking that this entry may be read, but posssibly not) I am a Shakespeare specialist, I have been thinking a lot about the themes in his plays at this stage of his life around 38........I believe he was greatly disappointed in people, and was seeing the world through much less hopeful eyes......I see this too at times...... The endings of his plays went from definitively comic or tragic, to endings resulting in questions that were far less definitive........Yes, this is a little rambling but I think the writing will reflect my inner emotional state at the moment