I couldn't keep up with these years that have gone by. So many events, so much struggle, and so little time to deal with the hand I was dealt. I've lost friends I've known my whole life, and I've gained a few new ones recently. With that being said I've also managed to get my heart broken. She was my best friend, or so I thought, but I can't let anything like that get to me because I have things to look forward. Like today for instance. Today I celebrate fourteen years having a heart transplant. Who would've known I can have somebody's heart beating inside of my chest for so long, after mine was so sick and dying. Doctors at Stanford are truly amazing. But like I was saying, so many events and emotions rendered me incapable of keeping track of these last fourteen years. I have no clue what I'll be doing today, but I know every day is a new day. It helps keeping that state of mind. I thank my mom for always reminding me that when I was a little kid. She doesn't anymore, but at least I remind myself every day (for the most part). Oh, and when I celebrate things, it usually involves plenty of cannabis and some food. Last week I did most of my celebrating in Long Beach with my dad. Even though it was raining, I still had fun and bought a few things. Even walked to the beach in the rain at four in the morning smoking a bowl and listening to the waves crash against the shore. With all that said and done, I've deleted most of my posts and pictures because I want to start over with my SG account. I just wish I could start over with some people.
