it is amazing what happens when one does not live online constantly anymore....
about a year ago I quit the 9-5 desk job and thus my SG friends have sparkled and faded... like the good Everclear CD that was left at the Chateau Marmont hotel after I worked there for three hours and got paid $600 for my time sitting and smoking kush on the patio of Bungalow #1... yeah, my job doesn't suck at times...
missing my lamp pad at the beach. that boy has lost his interest with me... although I did warn him of many different problems he could face, not including the paranoia of staying up for three days with three people and two of them check out of group conversation on day two and a half, tends to piss off a female you are sleeping with in your close proximity who is your guest if you are keeping all focus on her friend she told you to fool around with earlier... yeah, charmed life I lead.
that was two months ago, in the beginning of the last three months of personality AA I have been doing on myself... it is really hard to become self-actualized when you wake up one day on the 29th of May and realize that you are not only a mere shadow of the person you really are but also have created and manifested a personality to suit your impression of what qualities would display strength and gain respect in the adult world. however, when you look in the mirror, there is only a vicious siren playing people like pawns and recking havoc across the land with everyone she comes in direct contact with.... an elite-ist personality is what I have come to refer to her as.
An elitist. Would that be how Webster would spell it? I'll call him and check....
HOW ABOUT SOME FUN QUOTES I FIND ENTERTAINING? THAT IS FUN.. YEAH!
"I think a plan is just a list of things that don't happen"
"Karma? Karma is only justice without the satisfaction - but I don't believe in justice"
"You keep your life simple, you can literally self-sustain"
"Shut that cunt's mouth or I'll come over there and fuck-start her head!"
"You want to do the man dance? First dance is yours"
all from "The Way of the Gun"
"if you could fight one historical figure, who would it be?"
"Ghandi"
"oh - good one... little guys fight til they're burger"
"if you wake up in a different time or different place, doea that make you the same person?"
"I suppose these things happen."
"why I have these shit jobs?"
"becuase it affords <him> other interesting opprotunity"
all from "Fight Club"
WARNING... ENTERING DEEP DISCUSSION OF LIFE...
ha ha, just wanted to warn y'all.... tee hee
So now the lessons go on... want the list? there have been many repeats and the basics come up alot but hey,... give me some commentary if I missed one... eh?
~ Life is pain, it is how we choose to suffer or even if we do suffer. Beauty of life in all forms only translates as pain to the rational mind because the concept/emotion parallels with the purity of the emotion (you only know it is real because of the physical/mental)
~ EVERY SITUATION IS A NEW ONE. You make the best decision possible based on the information you have at the time and the measure of personal want involved in the equation. There are no regrets, just choices made that teach you valuable life experiences.
~ NO ONE EVER DESERVES TO SUFFER. I should never wish things upon my worst enemy or other, it would not be fair to anyone for me to execute judgement, Dredd-style or wishful thinking, its all bad karma if you ask me.
~ IT IS NOT MY FAULT! To realize who you are is far more disturbing than to pretend you are someone else (my lovely girlfriend wrote that on 5/2/00).
~ TO ASCEND YOU MUST DESCEND. nuff said.
~ IF YOU DO NOT BUILD A STEADY FOUNDATION, THE HOUSE WILL SINK IN THE SAND. do I have to explain everything?
~ "WHY DESTROY WHEN YOU CAN WIN BY STRENGTH AND CUNNING? TO SUBDUE THE ENEMY'S FORCES WITHOUT FIGHTING IS THE SUMMIT OF SKILL" (name that book)
~ "SUCCESS OFTEN COMES FROM DOING CALM THINGS WELL" (Gary Hamel)
~ BE AWARE, and when you got that, BE SELF-AWARE. it is the concept of making a decision versus being aware of a choice made by you.
and now that basics... the ones that are no-brainers...
~ CLARIFY AND VARIFY
~ FOCUS
~ THINK BEFORE YOU SPEAK this is modified to take 10-30 seconds to think of what you want to say and then how you want to say it, it will come out more articulate and precise.
~ DO NOT ASK "what do I THINK" BUT ASK "what do I KNOW?"
~ THE SMARTEST MAN SAID HE KNEW NOTHING
~ HONESTY IS THE BEST POLICY
that is it for the heavy stuff... fun read for me, I hope so for you too. any insight? go ahead and share for all to read... I hope... I like comments
. I get excited... 
maybe I'll showy you my "O" face... tee hee
late!
about a year ago I quit the 9-5 desk job and thus my SG friends have sparkled and faded... like the good Everclear CD that was left at the Chateau Marmont hotel after I worked there for three hours and got paid $600 for my time sitting and smoking kush on the patio of Bungalow #1... yeah, my job doesn't suck at times...
missing my lamp pad at the beach. that boy has lost his interest with me... although I did warn him of many different problems he could face, not including the paranoia of staying up for three days with three people and two of them check out of group conversation on day two and a half, tends to piss off a female you are sleeping with in your close proximity who is your guest if you are keeping all focus on her friend she told you to fool around with earlier... yeah, charmed life I lead.
that was two months ago, in the beginning of the last three months of personality AA I have been doing on myself... it is really hard to become self-actualized when you wake up one day on the 29th of May and realize that you are not only a mere shadow of the person you really are but also have created and manifested a personality to suit your impression of what qualities would display strength and gain respect in the adult world. however, when you look in the mirror, there is only a vicious siren playing people like pawns and recking havoc across the land with everyone she comes in direct contact with.... an elite-ist personality is what I have come to refer to her as.
An elitist. Would that be how Webster would spell it? I'll call him and check....
HOW ABOUT SOME FUN QUOTES I FIND ENTERTAINING? THAT IS FUN.. YEAH!
"I think a plan is just a list of things that don't happen"
"Karma? Karma is only justice without the satisfaction - but I don't believe in justice"
"You keep your life simple, you can literally self-sustain"
"Shut that cunt's mouth or I'll come over there and fuck-start her head!"
"You want to do the man dance? First dance is yours"
all from "The Way of the Gun"
"if you could fight one historical figure, who would it be?"
"Ghandi"
"oh - good one... little guys fight til they're burger"
"if you wake up in a different time or different place, doea that make you the same person?"
"I suppose these things happen."
"why I have these shit jobs?"
"becuase it affords <him> other interesting opprotunity"
all from "Fight Club"
WARNING... ENTERING DEEP DISCUSSION OF LIFE...
ha ha, just wanted to warn y'all.... tee hee
So now the lessons go on... want the list? there have been many repeats and the basics come up alot but hey,... give me some commentary if I missed one... eh?
~ Life is pain, it is how we choose to suffer or even if we do suffer. Beauty of life in all forms only translates as pain to the rational mind because the concept/emotion parallels with the purity of the emotion (you only know it is real because of the physical/mental)
~ EVERY SITUATION IS A NEW ONE. You make the best decision possible based on the information you have at the time and the measure of personal want involved in the equation. There are no regrets, just choices made that teach you valuable life experiences.
~ NO ONE EVER DESERVES TO SUFFER. I should never wish things upon my worst enemy or other, it would not be fair to anyone for me to execute judgement, Dredd-style or wishful thinking, its all bad karma if you ask me.
~ IT IS NOT MY FAULT! To realize who you are is far more disturbing than to pretend you are someone else (my lovely girlfriend wrote that on 5/2/00).
~ TO ASCEND YOU MUST DESCEND. nuff said.
~ IF YOU DO NOT BUILD A STEADY FOUNDATION, THE HOUSE WILL SINK IN THE SAND. do I have to explain everything?
~ "WHY DESTROY WHEN YOU CAN WIN BY STRENGTH AND CUNNING? TO SUBDUE THE ENEMY'S FORCES WITHOUT FIGHTING IS THE SUMMIT OF SKILL" (name that book)
~ "SUCCESS OFTEN COMES FROM DOING CALM THINGS WELL" (Gary Hamel)
~ BE AWARE, and when you got that, BE SELF-AWARE. it is the concept of making a decision versus being aware of a choice made by you.
and now that basics... the ones that are no-brainers...
~ CLARIFY AND VARIFY
~ FOCUS
~ THINK BEFORE YOU SPEAK this is modified to take 10-30 seconds to think of what you want to say and then how you want to say it, it will come out more articulate and precise.
~ DO NOT ASK "what do I THINK" BUT ASK "what do I KNOW?"
~ THE SMARTEST MAN SAID HE KNEW NOTHING
~ HONESTY IS THE BEST POLICY
that is it for the heavy stuff... fun read for me, I hope so for you too. any insight? go ahead and share for all to read... I hope... I like comments
. I get excited...
maybe I'll showy you my "O" face... tee hee
late!