as the weeks pass, my eros desires are being satisfied more than I should.. and my living situation is about to settle, just two more weeks of chaos. now I live in a house where I clean and stock it, the pleasure of each other's company is mutually stimulating, and the space is a blessing.
I need to go running in the morning, I really do. And now that my new residence for a few weeks is a block from the beach, I might have to do that. work is scheduling me for mostly evenings, the other private dom-ing job is up in the air - I just need to pay off my cell so I can get it back, I am tired of people not being able to reach me. damn it.
living with the ex is very different. the whole thing is surreal actually. the mutual company we have seen in his (now our) living space is remanicant of older times when he and I were first dating. I just love to flop over him on the couch, it is really nice to light up a cigarette for two while watching an old episode of ER on a wednesday morning on our day off while the sun blazes into the front screen door and the ocean breeze blows the smoke in the rays of light. the companionship I am feeling lately is just astounding and calming, soon to become just me alone in a new place.
although I am very okay with the living situation, moving into my own space is so necessary.... I cannot share a space too long still. I just feel the itch to change again, just becuase I know that the comfort level can become intense with my ex so quickly, before I even see it. also, the party environment just exists. I think in order to stay somewhat rational for the next two to three weeks with this interesting situation on hand that I will just have to let go and go with the flow... roll with the punches... ---- indulge.
she wants to indulge in a girl, me thinks. I really really want to meet some women to choose from... but I think the only way that will happen successfully is if I am solid at home and when I am settled in the home I am moving into now... so next week, I want to go to the bar and find a mate. a good fuck.
just so some of you all know, I still have my prince as my technical boyfriend. I have not seen him in two weeks since saturday - and it means I have been pretty sexually frustrated from work.. so my outlets are a little unorthidox lately. that is all I am going to comment. besides my normal antics have changed into a similar variation but just a deviant.
ain't I a sucker?
bid-di, bid-di, that's all folks!
~ the angel
ak a Mistress Jolie*
I need to go running in the morning, I really do. And now that my new residence for a few weeks is a block from the beach, I might have to do that. work is scheduling me for mostly evenings, the other private dom-ing job is up in the air - I just need to pay off my cell so I can get it back, I am tired of people not being able to reach me. damn it.
living with the ex is very different. the whole thing is surreal actually. the mutual company we have seen in his (now our) living space is remanicant of older times when he and I were first dating. I just love to flop over him on the couch, it is really nice to light up a cigarette for two while watching an old episode of ER on a wednesday morning on our day off while the sun blazes into the front screen door and the ocean breeze blows the smoke in the rays of light. the companionship I am feeling lately is just astounding and calming, soon to become just me alone in a new place.
although I am very okay with the living situation, moving into my own space is so necessary.... I cannot share a space too long still. I just feel the itch to change again, just becuase I know that the comfort level can become intense with my ex so quickly, before I even see it. also, the party environment just exists. I think in order to stay somewhat rational for the next two to three weeks with this interesting situation on hand that I will just have to let go and go with the flow... roll with the punches... ---- indulge.
she wants to indulge in a girl, me thinks. I really really want to meet some women to choose from... but I think the only way that will happen successfully is if I am solid at home and when I am settled in the home I am moving into now... so next week, I want to go to the bar and find a mate. a good fuck.
just so some of you all know, I still have my prince as my technical boyfriend. I have not seen him in two weeks since saturday - and it means I have been pretty sexually frustrated from work.. so my outlets are a little unorthidox lately. that is all I am going to comment. besides my normal antics have changed into a similar variation but just a deviant.
ain't I a sucker?
bid-di, bid-di, that's all folks!
~ the angel
ak a Mistress Jolie*
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What a small world.
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