fucked up...
and awake.
i love to smoke. the cigarette is so good... it is so bad though. I have no chance at singing my songs to the producer if I keep smoking. fuck. got to quit. soon.
but it tastes so good at night, the insomiac that I am. who am I kidding? I need to choose soon, greens or nicotine. fuck.
my prince is mine. did I mention that? so much personal shit going on, so much conflict with me work. told my bro today what I did, he thought it was cool. he is working for fire systems testing company which flies him to SF during the week. he is taking off a semester to work. I support him, he is smart as hell. let us see what he does.
my sister is getting married in september, the beginning, in Hawaii. september 3rd, the official (although it was June 21st per the Army for her to keep her man last year). I want to bring my ex-roomie, RED (Shannon I refer to her as sometimes), on with me for support - and I want my prince to attend as well. I wonder if my family will be making it out there. I will, no matter what.
my man joked with me last night about moving in again. so funny cuz he can berely leave me at his house without him. odd to me.. but funny and sweet as well. since the joke has happened a few times, I wonder how serious he is sometimes. it would be good for me though, to be in his environment, keep me straight as an arrow I think. I have been slipping up a bit, rebelling against the idea of just us. I am scared. that is the ultimate truth. I am not in control of him at all - and that is a new one.
the ex is intregued by my new occupation. so much he has helped in my bondage tutoring. fun stuff. in the end however I did not want to sleep with him, not fun for me. interesting...
perhaps I am growing.. or in between. Odd. not planned.
enough of that - when I figure it out (like, monday-ish), I will come back to it. I would like to think I am a rational enough person as well as more reasonable by far for a female.. more guy-like. hell, I like to sleep right after I have my first cum - hello?!?! more interesting stuff going on...
I have one subject I need to address. I need to know more about the Masons ( a higher society, more serious and intense than any frat - think "the Skulls" movie but reality-based). there have been realizations I have made and found that our current president is closely related to the Illuminati, a society which does in fact exist. but that is just the beginning. if you know more about this particular subject, please contact me via email through this site, and let me know if you are via my comments page. I thirst for knowledge, help me.
'nuff for now. nighty night.
~ the angel*
and awake.
i love to smoke. the cigarette is so good... it is so bad though. I have no chance at singing my songs to the producer if I keep smoking. fuck. got to quit. soon.
but it tastes so good at night, the insomiac that I am. who am I kidding? I need to choose soon, greens or nicotine. fuck.
my prince is mine. did I mention that? so much personal shit going on, so much conflict with me work. told my bro today what I did, he thought it was cool. he is working for fire systems testing company which flies him to SF during the week. he is taking off a semester to work. I support him, he is smart as hell. let us see what he does.
my sister is getting married in september, the beginning, in Hawaii. september 3rd, the official (although it was June 21st per the Army for her to keep her man last year). I want to bring my ex-roomie, RED (Shannon I refer to her as sometimes), on with me for support - and I want my prince to attend as well. I wonder if my family will be making it out there. I will, no matter what.
my man joked with me last night about moving in again. so funny cuz he can berely leave me at his house without him. odd to me.. but funny and sweet as well. since the joke has happened a few times, I wonder how serious he is sometimes. it would be good for me though, to be in his environment, keep me straight as an arrow I think. I have been slipping up a bit, rebelling against the idea of just us. I am scared. that is the ultimate truth. I am not in control of him at all - and that is a new one.
the ex is intregued by my new occupation. so much he has helped in my bondage tutoring. fun stuff. in the end however I did not want to sleep with him, not fun for me. interesting...
perhaps I am growing.. or in between. Odd. not planned.
enough of that - when I figure it out (like, monday-ish), I will come back to it. I would like to think I am a rational enough person as well as more reasonable by far for a female.. more guy-like. hell, I like to sleep right after I have my first cum - hello?!?! more interesting stuff going on...
I have one subject I need to address. I need to know more about the Masons ( a higher society, more serious and intense than any frat - think "the Skulls" movie but reality-based). there have been realizations I have made and found that our current president is closely related to the Illuminati, a society which does in fact exist. but that is just the beginning. if you know more about this particular subject, please contact me via email through this site, and let me know if you are via my comments page. I thirst for knowledge, help me.
'nuff for now. nighty night.
~ the angel*
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syer_lps:
OI OI How is it going?
venicechris:
Bet you didn't know my family tree dates back over 400 years to Bavaria. Odd how this just happens to be the same date and time the supposed "Illuminati" began their quest for world domination. Oh, not just world domination like Hittler, Alexander, Ceasar etc. they wanted the populace obsequious. Good fuckin' luck guys.