JOURNAL:
on friday night I called a guy I had dated briefly in the beginning of the year. the news was devistating... only to my pride. the results is uping my doctor's appointment for treatment of a bacteria.. that is if I even have it - and I had to make some phone calls... the ones I never thought I would make.
'tis no matter. treated easily with a week of antibiotics, it is solved. But to receive that kind of news with the precautions I usually take with the peole I am invovled with, it is very upsetting. I hate being the one to blame. However, after much thought and consideration, I think I know where the problem began. one of two cuplrits, both no longer allowed to touch my . the third, who fucking knows? with this thing, I could have had it for months but I am pretty sure it is recent due to the available information on the lovely internet - isn't it amazing what you can learn?
after being treated, I am able to go back to normal. through all that though I have learned my lesson yet again - know where you partners have been. although one of my partners casually stated to the news "you know it is no big deal, it is like a hyped up infection, no big deal" I have to consider that maybe he knows a little more about it than I ever wanted to assume... that makes me uneasy. The worst for me was the shame... and I know I am being a drama queen but damn, never thought it for me.
on the bright side, discussed the v-day letter with my Prince Charming and he, after much deliberation, asked me to be exclusive to him - in fact, the word "boyfriend" was used. now, that does not mean I cannot bring in a person or two - actually I wanted to bring a girl in for awhile but was too hesitant - but he is open to the male persuasion as well. so that means I can get royally fucked in front of him or give into some two guy play if I like.
I really like this relationship so far.
palm springs has been brough up again. he wants for next weekend, take a whole weekend etc. I told him to a)keep his plans with me this time and b)only if I get my rent in hand to pay it. since I have messages on my phone right now I should probably check them to see if I can schedule enough shoots this week to get away for the weekend with my man and possibly my ex-wife. that should be fun.. but I will be unable to enjoy the festivities - so I suggested the weekend following. for some reason, I did not feel the need to discuss with him the recent events as I am not sexually active with him right now. besides, ginger is in town. and I get to finally go back on the pill! the stress of my body taking it's sweet time (2 month wait this time - I was getting concerned) to let me have that usually monthly joy is ridiculous and nervewracking. there is nothing more in my life I hate more than uncertainty.
so the girl has been claimed, the stats have been changed, and I am interviewing for a dom position in north hollywood on monday night (at the Chateau) as well as possibly securing a server position at the Body Shop on Sunset Strip. my boys go there here and there so it would be nice to have my friends hang out with me at a strip joint I work at but do not shead my clothes - know what I mean? also I have scheduled to do a foot fetish video (no nudity) with another girl (girl on girl rocks) some time in the next few days. in the meantime, I just need to start paying back the people who helped me through last week... oh that.
yeah, my unpaid parking tickets caught up with me. I walked outside to go get my nails filled and, while putting my key in the door to unlock the car, noticed a nice orange boot on it. fucking great. after tearing through all my mail and then my acrylic nails (ripped them all off... not kidding) while discovering I owed $881 to them in 72 hours or they would impound her at $170 a day, I started crying and loosing it. I have not felt dispair like that in a little bit of time. but Prince Charming came to the rescue for me - after swallowing my pride and nothing else for the cash. missing my photoshoot on friday due to loosing the registration then having to renew it (cuz it was due on the 8th apparently), I was luckily able to pay it all due to a little help from my friends and the kindness of strangers.
if I can say anything else, help out your fellow man. if you can do something for someone who cannot do it for themselves - help. it is how this world will get better, one person at a time paying it forward. *tear* all I can say is someone was looking out for me besides icariancypher, although he helped a lot saving my ass that day as well. so thank you. you made my millenia.
hopefully my bro Mr. DeWit and his buddy DJ Wolfie's party went off the fo-sheezy, I was with my man figuring ourselves out... perhaps the next time guys. in fact, you have my word.
BTW - if I put a link here for a party, it will be the fo-shizzle dizzle nizzle peeps. I do not promote loser parties. fo' sho'!
thanks for putting up with a big dork, that would be me. hopefully I will be able to put some of my shots from modeling on the site in my pic folder for you all to see! now I just need to find a way to get my hair cut and colored like shane of "the L word", it premieres tonight at 10pm on Showtime, I am so excited. jenny of "the L word"is my ideal woman. know anyone that looks like her? that is what I want for my birthday.
yours ever devoted... much love to my SG pals. thanks for reading and please leave commentary so I know who reads and who does not. I am working on being more online oriented lately so... yeah.
mahalo.
~ the angel*
on friday night I called a guy I had dated briefly in the beginning of the year. the news was devistating... only to my pride. the results is uping my doctor's appointment for treatment of a bacteria.. that is if I even have it - and I had to make some phone calls... the ones I never thought I would make.
'tis no matter. treated easily with a week of antibiotics, it is solved. But to receive that kind of news with the precautions I usually take with the peole I am invovled with, it is very upsetting. I hate being the one to blame. However, after much thought and consideration, I think I know where the problem began. one of two cuplrits, both no longer allowed to touch my . the third, who fucking knows? with this thing, I could have had it for months but I am pretty sure it is recent due to the available information on the lovely internet - isn't it amazing what you can learn?
after being treated, I am able to go back to normal. through all that though I have learned my lesson yet again - know where you partners have been. although one of my partners casually stated to the news "you know it is no big deal, it is like a hyped up infection, no big deal" I have to consider that maybe he knows a little more about it than I ever wanted to assume... that makes me uneasy. The worst for me was the shame... and I know I am being a drama queen but damn, never thought it for me.
on the bright side, discussed the v-day letter with my Prince Charming and he, after much deliberation, asked me to be exclusive to him - in fact, the word "boyfriend" was used. now, that does not mean I cannot bring in a person or two - actually I wanted to bring a girl in for awhile but was too hesitant - but he is open to the male persuasion as well. so that means I can get royally fucked in front of him or give into some two guy play if I like.
I really like this relationship so far.
palm springs has been brough up again. he wants for next weekend, take a whole weekend etc. I told him to a)keep his plans with me this time and b)only if I get my rent in hand to pay it. since I have messages on my phone right now I should probably check them to see if I can schedule enough shoots this week to get away for the weekend with my man and possibly my ex-wife. that should be fun.. but I will be unable to enjoy the festivities - so I suggested the weekend following. for some reason, I did not feel the need to discuss with him the recent events as I am not sexually active with him right now. besides, ginger is in town. and I get to finally go back on the pill! the stress of my body taking it's sweet time (2 month wait this time - I was getting concerned) to let me have that usually monthly joy is ridiculous and nervewracking. there is nothing more in my life I hate more than uncertainty.
so the girl has been claimed, the stats have been changed, and I am interviewing for a dom position in north hollywood on monday night (at the Chateau) as well as possibly securing a server position at the Body Shop on Sunset Strip. my boys go there here and there so it would be nice to have my friends hang out with me at a strip joint I work at but do not shead my clothes - know what I mean? also I have scheduled to do a foot fetish video (no nudity) with another girl (girl on girl rocks) some time in the next few days. in the meantime, I just need to start paying back the people who helped me through last week... oh that.
yeah, my unpaid parking tickets caught up with me. I walked outside to go get my nails filled and, while putting my key in the door to unlock the car, noticed a nice orange boot on it. fucking great. after tearing through all my mail and then my acrylic nails (ripped them all off... not kidding) while discovering I owed $881 to them in 72 hours or they would impound her at $170 a day, I started crying and loosing it. I have not felt dispair like that in a little bit of time. but Prince Charming came to the rescue for me - after swallowing my pride and nothing else for the cash. missing my photoshoot on friday due to loosing the registration then having to renew it (cuz it was due on the 8th apparently), I was luckily able to pay it all due to a little help from my friends and the kindness of strangers.
if I can say anything else, help out your fellow man. if you can do something for someone who cannot do it for themselves - help. it is how this world will get better, one person at a time paying it forward. *tear* all I can say is someone was looking out for me besides icariancypher, although he helped a lot saving my ass that day as well. so thank you. you made my millenia.
hopefully my bro Mr. DeWit and his buddy DJ Wolfie's party went off the fo-sheezy, I was with my man figuring ourselves out... perhaps the next time guys. in fact, you have my word.
BTW - if I put a link here for a party, it will be the fo-shizzle dizzle nizzle peeps. I do not promote loser parties. fo' sho'!
thanks for putting up with a big dork, that would be me. hopefully I will be able to put some of my shots from modeling on the site in my pic folder for you all to see! now I just need to find a way to get my hair cut and colored like shane of "the L word", it premieres tonight at 10pm on Showtime, I am so excited. jenny of "the L word"is my ideal woman. know anyone that looks like her? that is what I want for my birthday.
yours ever devoted... much love to my SG pals. thanks for reading and please leave commentary so I know who reads and who does not. I am working on being more online oriented lately so... yeah.
mahalo.
~ the angel*
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Sorry about the boot! A friend of mine in NYC just got caught... She had $1400 worth!