well I added to my entry yesterday some really nice reflections... so nice I want to reiterate them again.
I miss that feeling of holding someone and, no matter the relationship, having that one moment between two people where it is just okay TO BE. I just want to be with someone, just be myself. And be loved.
I think I deserve that much.
On with the good news, shall we?
I booked a commercial. last night it came through, I am 2 out of 20 girls, my first audition. Also got a call back on some reality show concept, interview for monday with someone else for a documentary on LIFETIME (the network for women) that could pay a few grand...
and I am getting fitted for some work on the new Tom Cruise movie, "War of the Worlds", tomorrow at 4.20 - I wish I was kidding... about the time anyway. The part is real. Three days of shooting in the middle of february at night running around in water - I guess. Tomorrow I get "fitted". Fuck an A.
the thing is I do not get is I started this on Monday night, got the shot done Tuesday afternoon, posted Wednesday, and now I am all rolling and shit. I hope it does not climax soon and leave me be... I really want to pay off some bills first, you know? We shall see...
Going to be working on getting some extra money this weekend, making and investment for some party favors over the weekend - I am going to do what I never thought I would do again... be that girl but SCARFACE style.
I always wanted to try 'srooms. But not this weekend, it is all about business. We have rent to pay and money to make.
:record scratch: "Make money, make money, make..."
Well, I have been offered stripping jobs, escort work, and two strip clubs in different counties want me to audition asap, but this acting/modeling thing is working out so far.
Oh and I have 14 requests from legit photographers (not adult work!) to do work soon enough, two paid. Guess which emails I will answer first. Thanks, ChrisChick, for the website. Much fun. You rule girl. Now when are you coming up...?
I miss my friends. Might have to make that party on saturday night. Right after my private strip tease for a couple friend.... long story. Nothing I have not done really yet... just getting a little help on rent for it.
I do not want to hear it.
Mahalo. And god, whenever you are ready.... just do it.
Whatever it is you got up your sleeve.
~ the angel*
PS - the bartender from work hunted me down and called my house for me. I called him back. got the answering machine, left a message. long story short, no call back today. Why would he make the effort? I did not - is that why? I am confused... and still no response from Prince Charming. Gawd, I am so over it! Fuck that too.....!
I am so tired of these losers I date and let into my life... NEXT!
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BTW, getting this alot... thought I might remind the public....
"Your Sex Sign is Libra!
You've got a ton of girls and guys trying to get with you!
You're pratically booked up for the next four years.
Not only are you great in bed - you're great at making people feel sexy.
No wonder you're so popular!
"Libra, as you probably have noticed, you are always surrounded by scores of admiring suitors.
You are a very accomplished flirt.
Catching you is not for the faint hearted.
Competition is always fierce.
"Your innate charm and incredible looks instantly attract - and keep - your lovers.
Old flames and rejected suitors always keep coming back for more.
"There is a strong bisexual element in your personality.
You're more likely to be aroused by the same sex than other signs.
In threesomes, you are more likely to prefer that one partner is opposite sex and that the third is same sex.
Your lovers adore you because you are a real ego stroker.
You are eager to please and will do almost anything they ask.
You are a born diplomat, which comes in handy with all of your suitors.
You always win fights too, because your charm is irresistable!"
I rest my case. It is just how it is. Fucking great.
I miss that feeling of holding someone and, no matter the relationship, having that one moment between two people where it is just okay TO BE. I just want to be with someone, just be myself. And be loved.
I think I deserve that much.
On with the good news, shall we?
I booked a commercial. last night it came through, I am 2 out of 20 girls, my first audition. Also got a call back on some reality show concept, interview for monday with someone else for a documentary on LIFETIME (the network for women) that could pay a few grand...
and I am getting fitted for some work on the new Tom Cruise movie, "War of the Worlds", tomorrow at 4.20 - I wish I was kidding... about the time anyway. The part is real. Three days of shooting in the middle of february at night running around in water - I guess. Tomorrow I get "fitted". Fuck an A.
the thing is I do not get is I started this on Monday night, got the shot done Tuesday afternoon, posted Wednesday, and now I am all rolling and shit. I hope it does not climax soon and leave me be... I really want to pay off some bills first, you know? We shall see...
Going to be working on getting some extra money this weekend, making and investment for some party favors over the weekend - I am going to do what I never thought I would do again... be that girl but SCARFACE style.
I always wanted to try 'srooms. But not this weekend, it is all about business. We have rent to pay and money to make.
:record scratch: "Make money, make money, make..."
Well, I have been offered stripping jobs, escort work, and two strip clubs in different counties want me to audition asap, but this acting/modeling thing is working out so far.
Oh and I have 14 requests from legit photographers (not adult work!) to do work soon enough, two paid. Guess which emails I will answer first. Thanks, ChrisChick, for the website. Much fun. You rule girl. Now when are you coming up...?
I miss my friends. Might have to make that party on saturday night. Right after my private strip tease for a couple friend.... long story. Nothing I have not done really yet... just getting a little help on rent for it.
I do not want to hear it.
Mahalo. And god, whenever you are ready.... just do it.
Whatever it is you got up your sleeve.
~ the angel*
PS - the bartender from work hunted me down and called my house for me. I called him back. got the answering machine, left a message. long story short, no call back today. Why would he make the effort? I did not - is that why? I am confused... and still no response from Prince Charming. Gawd, I am so over it! Fuck that too.....!
I am so tired of these losers I date and let into my life... NEXT!
***************************************************
BTW, getting this alot... thought I might remind the public....
"Your Sex Sign is Libra!
You've got a ton of girls and guys trying to get with you!
You're pratically booked up for the next four years.
Not only are you great in bed - you're great at making people feel sexy.
No wonder you're so popular!
"Libra, as you probably have noticed, you are always surrounded by scores of admiring suitors.
You are a very accomplished flirt.
Catching you is not for the faint hearted.
Competition is always fierce.
"Your innate charm and incredible looks instantly attract - and keep - your lovers.
Old flames and rejected suitors always keep coming back for more.
"There is a strong bisexual element in your personality.
You're more likely to be aroused by the same sex than other signs.
In threesomes, you are more likely to prefer that one partner is opposite sex and that the third is same sex.
Your lovers adore you because you are a real ego stroker.
You are eager to please and will do almost anything they ask.
You are a born diplomat, which comes in handy with all of your suitors.
You always win fights too, because your charm is irresistable!"
I rest my case. It is just how it is. Fucking great.
VIEW 19 of 19 COMMENTS
javert:
I hope you don't have a date for Valentine's Day....yet
stasia:
YAY!!!!!!!!! that would RULE!!