I am sorry it is in this nature - I just wanted to get the impersonal "breaking of the news" out of the way as my reaction right now is unknown - this is a new one for me.
I am realizing the reason for leaving LA was to spend what I now know were the last 6 months of my stepfather's mortal existance.
That is dramatic, but it is all I am admitting right now. Do not worry too much about me, I am fine. I am feeling it all but okay. I am spending the next few days with him until his surgery on Monday, if not over the weekend. The story is unclear, but the outlook does not look good.
My cellphone was off. Sorry to all of you. It is being negotiated but outlook not so good. I will be on it here and there, but emailing is good for me, easier.
Keep my brothers, grandmother, and close friends in mind over the weekend. Your thoughts will be felt.
I send all my love. I miss you all, thank you for being there for me all this time, as long as I have known you. Since this is a general note until I know more, although impersonal, all of you have a place in my heart and being - I may not show it, but I thank each of you in my head when I read the kind words left for me many times here.
*puss puss*
~ the kelly angel*
UPDATE: 2AM on January 17th, 2005
The news is this:
He has a tumor the size of 7 inches long and 4 inches around in his stomach which is hemoraging and causing him to loose lots of blood. If they do not remove it, he will die. It may be or may not be cancerous, they do not know. They THINK according to the catscan that the rest of his body is fine but they cannot be sure - the bleeding is making it impossible to know. He could die on the operating table with the complications - he has a 50/50 chance. But he still has a chance.
here is the kicker.
6 months ago he went in for a kidney stone he had to pass, they did a catscan then. The tumor is shown in the catscan the size of a golf ball - no one informed him or his personal family physician of the tumor even though it was clearly seen in the report and obvious - the hospital did not do their job. 6 months ago that was minor surgery - now he might die. And, because the tumor was detected before, even with the complications above, the health care coverage will not cover the exploritory part of the surgery because it was a "pre-existing condition".
You have got to be fucking kidding me. and on top of that, our co-pay just to get into the door of a hospital is $1500.
What the fuck do I have insurance for anyway? The surgery is tomorrow at 3:20pm. I will be driving on the freeway back from LA at the time after I get off work.
if there is anything at all, have good thoughts for us.
thank you.
I am realizing the reason for leaving LA was to spend what I now know were the last 6 months of my stepfather's mortal existance.
That is dramatic, but it is all I am admitting right now. Do not worry too much about me, I am fine. I am feeling it all but okay. I am spending the next few days with him until his surgery on Monday, if not over the weekend. The story is unclear, but the outlook does not look good.
My cellphone was off. Sorry to all of you. It is being negotiated but outlook not so good. I will be on it here and there, but emailing is good for me, easier.
Keep my brothers, grandmother, and close friends in mind over the weekend. Your thoughts will be felt.
I send all my love. I miss you all, thank you for being there for me all this time, as long as I have known you. Since this is a general note until I know more, although impersonal, all of you have a place in my heart and being - I may not show it, but I thank each of you in my head when I read the kind words left for me many times here.
*puss puss*
~ the kelly angel*
UPDATE: 2AM on January 17th, 2005
The news is this:
He has a tumor the size of 7 inches long and 4 inches around in his stomach which is hemoraging and causing him to loose lots of blood. If they do not remove it, he will die. It may be or may not be cancerous, they do not know. They THINK according to the catscan that the rest of his body is fine but they cannot be sure - the bleeding is making it impossible to know. He could die on the operating table with the complications - he has a 50/50 chance. But he still has a chance.
here is the kicker.
6 months ago he went in for a kidney stone he had to pass, they did a catscan then. The tumor is shown in the catscan the size of a golf ball - no one informed him or his personal family physician of the tumor even though it was clearly seen in the report and obvious - the hospital did not do their job. 6 months ago that was minor surgery - now he might die. And, because the tumor was detected before, even with the complications above, the health care coverage will not cover the exploritory part of the surgery because it was a "pre-existing condition".
You have got to be fucking kidding me. and on top of that, our co-pay just to get into the door of a hospital is $1500.
What the fuck do I have insurance for anyway? The surgery is tomorrow at 3:20pm. I will be driving on the freeway back from LA at the time after I get off work.
if there is anything at all, have good thoughts for us.
thank you.
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I don't think I am doing the Cali. thing this year.. I am wanting to stay down here and enjoy the southern lifestyle that I am so use to...I am thinking the ATL for a week or two, but it would be fun to hit LA.