I have been working. I just walked into my old restaurant and they re-hired me. So I am waitressing and it is sucking... but I am a strong server so the shifts are getting better.
I need to get a job in the Silverlake area. Know anyone?
Moving into Silverlake at the end of the year, cute little house right off the 101 near Sunset... wow, I love it. Gets really cold though in the winter season, wood floors and all... no central heating. Might have to get a space heater... damn. But $500 a month is a sweet deal for a room and my own bathroom (and the guest bathroom but it is cool). I am so happy that I have good friends.... I love them.
Wanting to get a job over on Sunset near the house, going to look into that today and/or tomorrow. Things have been tight with money. GOt my car towed over the weekend because I was a dork and,in the dark street, I parked in front of this little driveway near the future residence... $170 out the door. I also happened to "loose" (maybe stolen) glasses case with not only my glasses but my money from the last 3 days of tips (minus some expenses, about $170 as well). So it was a bad weekend. I have to make some miracles here again... but it will be fine. Eventually...
Not dating really. I went to the opening night of LA BOHEME saturday, it was amazing! I might date that guy, my friend from high school, the only younger guy I have messed around with and slept with... but I waited til someone else took the halo (he wanted me to do it... I am so bad sometimes). I like him but am hesitant. I should not date anyone right now...!
I am getting all sorts of people in my life telling me I have lost a lot of weight. While I am very happy to hear it and glad it is noticed, I am sort of uneasy. I mean, everyone says it the same.... "I know you looked good before and all and you were not fat but damn! you have lost some weight - you still look good but DAMN!"
Thank you. I am so appreciative... but okay, I get it. Thanks. I still feel the junk in the stomach but I guess I cover it well... I cannot be perfect, I spend over 2 hours a day in my car driving just to work. Wow, that is sad. I think I am going to try and stop doing that as much.
poopiepants05 has another gig on tuesday with his band THE RANDIES in Silverlake, my future "to-be"home area. Since I have to work early in the morning, I might have the birthday boy on that night, printgod, meet me there so we can jam to the show and I can stay near my housing since I have to work at 8:30 am the morning after. I hope my future roomies are down with that... I will talk to them today... and perhaps invite the birthday boy via online and phone... depends on my time table... no concrete ones though. Enough of that, how about my serious shit?
Sorry, do not mean to bore you... but I changed my personal profile a little bit again.. I love this site cuz I just say what I think.. I love being me... anyway...
Javert says he might be able to be here in LA in January... dude, if you are.. I am game for a photoshoot and hang out time! We would be inseperable... fuck. That will be awesome.. I will have to give you my number to call me when you get out here... need to be picked up at the airport? Speaking of hotties....
My prince has disappeared as he does from time to time. I am trying to ignore the pangs of hurt on the strings of my heart (so dramatic... I know) but I really wanted to see where that one would have gone... I just feel like there has been so much going on with me personally that I could not be there for him like he wanted me to be... I am all or nothing and he wanted to pick and choose how involved I was. I asked him not to speak of anything regarding us taking steps to further our relationship from long term dating partner unless he meant it... and he did supposively. So now I am hurting and I do not know how to handle it like a lady except to shut down and cut my losses. Again.
The other asshole, the ex, is still around but the pull is not the same. I see myself surpassing him on a level I cannot explain, of self-love perhaps. He seems lost sometimes and, when he looks in my eyes, he thinks I am a guide and he takes comfort in the regularity we used to have since it was happy times... like a mini-vacation at dinner for him - and for me to. It is nice to remember how happy we made each other. I just need to let go - hard to do when you cannot find the reason why you still would give anything you could of yourself to or for that person. I guess it is love. Maybe.... I don't know.
Enough of that shit. Us girls are such drama queens and I know I over-analyze. I am just realizing how flakey I am as a person and have been to friends over the frew years of the drug use. I want to change that but I do not know how to. I want to repent for my lack of character to sustain friendships. I just do not know how to fix it. Be there, okay. But why? I need to be motivated and these people just do not seem to care to hear the excuses anymore....
I need to be a better person and a more reliable friend. New Years Resolutions for the new house and the new life I am beginning yet again. Next chapter in the boook of my life.
I guess we shall see. let us turn the page... isn't that a song from the late 60s or early 70s?
Mahalo lovers, *puss puss* (swedish for "kiss kiss"),
~ the ever-changing angel*
I need to get a job in the Silverlake area. Know anyone?
Moving into Silverlake at the end of the year, cute little house right off the 101 near Sunset... wow, I love it. Gets really cold though in the winter season, wood floors and all... no central heating. Might have to get a space heater... damn. But $500 a month is a sweet deal for a room and my own bathroom (and the guest bathroom but it is cool). I am so happy that I have good friends.... I love them.
Wanting to get a job over on Sunset near the house, going to look into that today and/or tomorrow. Things have been tight with money. GOt my car towed over the weekend because I was a dork and,in the dark street, I parked in front of this little driveway near the future residence... $170 out the door. I also happened to "loose" (maybe stolen) glasses case with not only my glasses but my money from the last 3 days of tips (minus some expenses, about $170 as well). So it was a bad weekend. I have to make some miracles here again... but it will be fine. Eventually...
Not dating really. I went to the opening night of LA BOHEME saturday, it was amazing! I might date that guy, my friend from high school, the only younger guy I have messed around with and slept with... but I waited til someone else took the halo (he wanted me to do it... I am so bad sometimes). I like him but am hesitant. I should not date anyone right now...!
I am getting all sorts of people in my life telling me I have lost a lot of weight. While I am very happy to hear it and glad it is noticed, I am sort of uneasy. I mean, everyone says it the same.... "I know you looked good before and all and you were not fat but damn! you have lost some weight - you still look good but DAMN!"
Thank you. I am so appreciative... but okay, I get it. Thanks. I still feel the junk in the stomach but I guess I cover it well... I cannot be perfect, I spend over 2 hours a day in my car driving just to work. Wow, that is sad. I think I am going to try and stop doing that as much.
poopiepants05 has another gig on tuesday with his band THE RANDIES in Silverlake, my future "to-be"home area. Since I have to work early in the morning, I might have the birthday boy on that night, printgod, meet me there so we can jam to the show and I can stay near my housing since I have to work at 8:30 am the morning after. I hope my future roomies are down with that... I will talk to them today... and perhaps invite the birthday boy via online and phone... depends on my time table... no concrete ones though. Enough of that, how about my serious shit?
Sorry, do not mean to bore you... but I changed my personal profile a little bit again.. I love this site cuz I just say what I think.. I love being me... anyway...
Javert says he might be able to be here in LA in January... dude, if you are.. I am game for a photoshoot and hang out time! We would be inseperable... fuck. That will be awesome.. I will have to give you my number to call me when you get out here... need to be picked up at the airport? Speaking of hotties....
My prince has disappeared as he does from time to time. I am trying to ignore the pangs of hurt on the strings of my heart (so dramatic... I know) but I really wanted to see where that one would have gone... I just feel like there has been so much going on with me personally that I could not be there for him like he wanted me to be... I am all or nothing and he wanted to pick and choose how involved I was. I asked him not to speak of anything regarding us taking steps to further our relationship from long term dating partner unless he meant it... and he did supposively. So now I am hurting and I do not know how to handle it like a lady except to shut down and cut my losses. Again.
The other asshole, the ex, is still around but the pull is not the same. I see myself surpassing him on a level I cannot explain, of self-love perhaps. He seems lost sometimes and, when he looks in my eyes, he thinks I am a guide and he takes comfort in the regularity we used to have since it was happy times... like a mini-vacation at dinner for him - and for me to. It is nice to remember how happy we made each other. I just need to let go - hard to do when you cannot find the reason why you still would give anything you could of yourself to or for that person. I guess it is love. Maybe.... I don't know.
Enough of that shit. Us girls are such drama queens and I know I over-analyze. I am just realizing how flakey I am as a person and have been to friends over the frew years of the drug use. I want to change that but I do not know how to. I want to repent for my lack of character to sustain friendships. I just do not know how to fix it. Be there, okay. But why? I need to be motivated and these people just do not seem to care to hear the excuses anymore....
I need to be a better person and a more reliable friend. New Years Resolutions for the new house and the new life I am beginning yet again. Next chapter in the boook of my life.
I guess we shall see. let us turn the page... isn't that a song from the late 60s or early 70s?
Mahalo lovers, *puss puss* (swedish for "kiss kiss"),
~ the ever-changing angel*
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jeremyscareme:
Yes, i do, of ocurse, know the Viceroy. Whenever is good for you. After you move. In 2005. Sounds fun.
dade37:
Happy gobble gobble day 