I was so hormonal last journal entry. I think I am seriously disturbed sometimes off the birth control. Yes, guys, yes - bc helps us women balance our hormones and when a girl is using the WRONG combination it becomse a nightmare. Unless you are just hormonal when off - like me.
I hate being a girl this lifetime... this is fucking hilarious to the gods, trust me.. they are entertained.
I am in love iwht my new hair colour but I want to cut the hair up a little bit more, make it lighter on me. Probably do a mod-70s look or something.
Los Angeles, here I come. July and August. Then NYC gets me back for the fall. Going to start a label - well, going to give it my all and try... this is one of those moments in life where you are playing RISK - and you just have to jump...
Watched that new movie (2004 release) about the Third Reich and the last days of Hitler from his secretary's point of view - it is called Downfall if anyone is interested. I was in shock watching it. But I was amazed. That is all I will say on that subject.
"these are the moments I'll remember all my life
I could not ask for more than what we have together
I could not ask for more in this time with you
Every prayer I've had been answered
and every dream I have's come true
Right here in this moment is right where I was ment to be
Here with you, here with me.
I could not ask for more."
(edwin mccain)
I miss my man. He is such a comfort and amazing energy for me.. his warmth feels like no other. I feel peace with him - although sometimes I feel also lesser or less capable in his presence. it makes sense, I have a textbook Electra Complex so it makes sense that one guy who is a real man in all the ways my father was not... and also emotionally shut down like my father - IT ALL MAKES SENSE! He is perfect for...
..my dad?
We know better but we continue to do otherwise. We make decisions based on the information we have at the time and what our character will allow. It shows the fabric of someone's character when an emergency or extreme situation is presented and the rational and irrational are separated like men from boys. Tough to tell at first. 
"I see hell in your eyes
Taken in by surprise
touching you makes me feel alive
touching makes me die inside
I've spent so long without you"
(The Vampire Lestat)
the ex is around. he is welcoming me home to LA. If nothing else, he must be a friend. He is amazing and also very damaging for me. I have to stay clean of everything (but the herb), including cigarettes.
yes, I am also going to quit smoking during this whole move. go me.
I hate being a girl this lifetime... this is fucking hilarious to the gods, trust me.. they are entertained.
I am in love iwht my new hair colour but I want to cut the hair up a little bit more, make it lighter on me. Probably do a mod-70s look or something.
Los Angeles, here I come. July and August. Then NYC gets me back for the fall. Going to start a label - well, going to give it my all and try... this is one of those moments in life where you are playing RISK - and you just have to jump...
Watched that new movie (2004 release) about the Third Reich and the last days of Hitler from his secretary's point of view - it is called Downfall if anyone is interested. I was in shock watching it. But I was amazed. That is all I will say on that subject.
"these are the moments I'll remember all my life
I could not ask for more than what we have together
I could not ask for more in this time with you
Every prayer I've had been answered
and every dream I have's come true
Right here in this moment is right where I was ment to be
Here with you, here with me.
I could not ask for more."
(edwin mccain)
I miss my man. He is such a comfort and amazing energy for me.. his warmth feels like no other. I feel peace with him - although sometimes I feel also lesser or less capable in his presence. it makes sense, I have a textbook Electra Complex so it makes sense that one guy who is a real man in all the ways my father was not... and also emotionally shut down like my father - IT ALL MAKES SENSE! He is perfect for...
..my dad?
We know better but we continue to do otherwise. We make decisions based on the information we have at the time and what our character will allow. It shows the fabric of someone's character when an emergency or extreme situation is presented and the rational and irrational are separated like men from boys. Tough to tell at first.
"I see hell in your eyes
Taken in by surprise
touching you makes me feel alive
touching makes me die inside
I've spent so long without you"
(The Vampire Lestat)
the ex is around. he is welcoming me home to LA. If nothing else, he must be a friend. He is amazing and also very damaging for me. I have to stay clean of everything (but the herb), including cigarettes.
yes, I am also going to quit smoking during this whole move. go me.
cheshirecat:
Yes DownfAll is a really interesting film,considering it is pretty muckh historically accurate anfd how it paints Hitler as a human instead of one dimensional.......great movie...welcome back to L.a.
vrodcbr:
Ann Rice is awsome, Good luck on the smoking, I need to quit also. Im a history buff, addicted to history channel, think i just like the past more then the future.