tonight is the night. looks like I will be flying out of the Burbank airport on Jet Blue around 9pm. one way flight to NYC and a taxi ride to my buddy Perry's pad then I can take a seat in my new city of residence.
I have been up most of the night bullshitting around online and making a few music mixes to listen to while in flight. I have to import a few playlists onto my computer harddrive from the external so I can actually play them, I do not want 34.2 GB of music on the laptop! besides, I have a list of things to compose so boredom is highly unlikely. might sleep the whole way...
if I am lucky.
on the brighter side of my world, my prince will be in the same city with I am until the 30th visiting his mother so I get to have one of my first dinners with him in the amazing concintration of energy New York is. he has pushed me to go since I made the plans at his house in august. it is the right place for me to go , he insisted, it will be good for me to get my life going again. I certainly agree with him. it is about fucking time.
so the occupation continues in the new city, at one of the best dungeons in New York City. again, this new avenue of employment is handled for me the idealist version of the vision I saw going into it,.. a place where the clientele is exclusive, the gentlemen that visit are ready to pay for the caliber of satisfaction i provide. so on a more exclusive commercial level, the quality is selective and up to par. plus the two most common sessions are my favorites, cross-dressing and slave training. yeah for me!
as for housing, I have not solidified a place to live. it took too long to get to the east coast! I am two months late down to the day.. almost. but maybe according to the universe I am not. technically all that occurs in my reality happens as it should. there are no mistakes (just "on-purpose"s) therefore regret is not an option. one should not live with regret, it makes a miserable roommate.
"take the time to get know me, if you want me why can't you just show me? we're always on this roller coaster, if you want me why can't you get closer? You tell me that you love me so, you tell me that you care, but when I really need you - baby - you're never there." (Cake, Never There) the circumstances surrounding the men I choose to involve myself with never ceases to amaze me. there is the emotionally unavailable, longtime bachelor and writer who is not only as tenacious as I am but just as bullheaded (a taurus as well). on the other end I have a boy prince who is a fifteen year old trapped in a thirty-two year old body who not only needs an alpha female but a constant stream of attention and adoration to where he lashes out in anger when you leave. between these two, you have me. hate to say it but it seems that I am more of a man than these two combined; the one thing they have in common is their ying-yang base origin of their heritage. two sides of the same coin. it is rare enough to find one of their kind on this planet but two? something is bigger than I can comprehend completely at this moment in my enlightenment.
in lighter news, just picked up a few new books at the bookstore this weekend thanks to {Kevin}, my angel in disguise. (I am a lucky biotch with the friends I have, gosh darn it!) Ever heard of Phillip K. Dick? His novels became such films as Total Recall, Blade Runner, A Scanner Darkly, Paycheck, and much more. I picked up "The Man In the High Castle" and my friend Joel let me borrow his copy of this author's written works such as essays and commentary, non-fiction and opinionated. fascinating man, extremely ahead of his time; he writes of government overcontrol, drug use, the questionable reality/realities we live in, and the almost unthinkable possibilities about the layers in our perceptual universe.
right up my alley. also picked up C.S. Lewis' "The Great Divorce" and another copy of Chuck Palahniuk's "Survivior". between those and "The Historian" still waiting, I have an extensive book reserve to be used up before more can be added. before speaking too soon, I also started reading "Angels and Demons" last night, a novel about the Illuminati (presented as fiction).
going to have to gain some weight while in NYC, need to put on a few pounds. I DID put some new pics in my REALITY ME pics folder for you all to check out. I cropped them myself! it is going to be so blistering cold in New York, I am sure I am not prepared for it but, at the same time, how could I be? I am a california kid, not a snow bunny. hopefully I have enough variety of clothing to keep me warm for a week's worth of days... at the least.
nervous? no, more like anxious. scared? more like anticipant. confident? oh yes, why shouldn't I be? in the end, it comes down to just manifesting my own god damn destiny - and ridding myself of the two more effective mindfucks there are in our realities: fear and self-doubt. eliminate these from your thinking and the possibilities are endless.....
we shall see soon, keep visiting.
I am Captain Jack Sparrow.
I have been up most of the night bullshitting around online and making a few music mixes to listen to while in flight. I have to import a few playlists onto my computer harddrive from the external so I can actually play them, I do not want 34.2 GB of music on the laptop! besides, I have a list of things to compose so boredom is highly unlikely. might sleep the whole way...
if I am lucky.
on the brighter side of my world, my prince will be in the same city with I am until the 30th visiting his mother so I get to have one of my first dinners with him in the amazing concintration of energy New York is. he has pushed me to go since I made the plans at his house in august. it is the right place for me to go , he insisted, it will be good for me to get my life going again. I certainly agree with him. it is about fucking time.
so the occupation continues in the new city, at one of the best dungeons in New York City. again, this new avenue of employment is handled for me the idealist version of the vision I saw going into it,.. a place where the clientele is exclusive, the gentlemen that visit are ready to pay for the caliber of satisfaction i provide. so on a more exclusive commercial level, the quality is selective and up to par. plus the two most common sessions are my favorites, cross-dressing and slave training. yeah for me!
as for housing, I have not solidified a place to live. it took too long to get to the east coast! I am two months late down to the day.. almost. but maybe according to the universe I am not. technically all that occurs in my reality happens as it should. there are no mistakes (just "on-purpose"s) therefore regret is not an option. one should not live with regret, it makes a miserable roommate.
"take the time to get know me, if you want me why can't you just show me? we're always on this roller coaster, if you want me why can't you get closer? You tell me that you love me so, you tell me that you care, but when I really need you - baby - you're never there." (Cake, Never There) the circumstances surrounding the men I choose to involve myself with never ceases to amaze me. there is the emotionally unavailable, longtime bachelor and writer who is not only as tenacious as I am but just as bullheaded (a taurus as well). on the other end I have a boy prince who is a fifteen year old trapped in a thirty-two year old body who not only needs an alpha female but a constant stream of attention and adoration to where he lashes out in anger when you leave. between these two, you have me. hate to say it but it seems that I am more of a man than these two combined; the one thing they have in common is their ying-yang base origin of their heritage. two sides of the same coin. it is rare enough to find one of their kind on this planet but two? something is bigger than I can comprehend completely at this moment in my enlightenment.
in lighter news, just picked up a few new books at the bookstore this weekend thanks to {Kevin}, my angel in disguise. (I am a lucky biotch with the friends I have, gosh darn it!) Ever heard of Phillip K. Dick? His novels became such films as Total Recall, Blade Runner, A Scanner Darkly, Paycheck, and much more. I picked up "The Man In the High Castle" and my friend Joel let me borrow his copy of this author's written works such as essays and commentary, non-fiction and opinionated. fascinating man, extremely ahead of his time; he writes of government overcontrol, drug use, the questionable reality/realities we live in, and the almost unthinkable possibilities about the layers in our perceptual universe.
right up my alley. also picked up C.S. Lewis' "The Great Divorce" and another copy of Chuck Palahniuk's "Survivior". between those and "The Historian" still waiting, I have an extensive book reserve to be used up before more can be added. before speaking too soon, I also started reading "Angels and Demons" last night, a novel about the Illuminati (presented as fiction).
going to have to gain some weight while in NYC, need to put on a few pounds. I DID put some new pics in my REALITY ME pics folder for you all to check out. I cropped them myself! it is going to be so blistering cold in New York, I am sure I am not prepared for it but, at the same time, how could I be? I am a california kid, not a snow bunny. hopefully I have enough variety of clothing to keep me warm for a week's worth of days... at the least.
nervous? no, more like anxious. scared? more like anticipant. confident? oh yes, why shouldn't I be? in the end, it comes down to just manifesting my own god damn destiny - and ridding myself of the two more effective mindfucks there are in our realities: fear and self-doubt. eliminate these from your thinking and the possibilities are endless.....
we shall see soon, keep visiting.
I am Captain Jack Sparrow.
it's that time of year...here's hoping the horizontally challenged male figure in red slides down your chimney and yells "lady of the night, lady of the night, lady of the night" and "merry traditional holiday" to you!!!!
happy holidays!!!!!
rick