lysie

i feel like a dickhead..

becuase im not 6 months pregnant..
and it wasnt the first baby...
and what i thought was kicking... obviously was not...

but i am pregnant..

2 months...

i had my ultrasound yesterday..

my baby is 16mm long. wtf!! how is it that something so small is making me feel so sick..

anyway one of the photos on the ultrasound film looks so cool. because i can see tiny little arms and tiny little legs and body.

i havent told my mum yet..
because she had a miscariage last week. she didnt know she was pregnant. and i think im the only one she has told..

but today she said.. put that chocolate cake down, ur buttons on your shirt are about to pop open cos of your beer belly...

hmm..

anyway my bf piece of shit.. we arent talking at the moment. he was angry at me cos i wouldnt let him come in for the ultrasound. mainly because i knew id have to have a vaginal ultrasound and i didnt want him to see how big the thing is that they stick inside you...

because welll...
i didnt want him to know that i could fit something that big in there.

im pretty immature in that sense.. i guess. but its something ill have to come to terms with seeing as tho there will be a baby coming out of there..

anyway enough about my vag...

anyone who read my previous blog knows i was fighting with my bf cos he was harassing me for sex all the time..

anyway he had the nerve to ask me for sex after the ultrasound..

i said no and he said... ' come on they put that jely stuff on you when you had the ultrasound so your already lubed up..

i cant believe him sometimes.