ive got a baby in my belly!!!
3 months ago i was pregnant and ended up having to have a medical abortion because of problems i have with my ovaries and uterus etc..
i was 10 weeks pregnant. the whole experience at the hospital was shitty...
i had to have counceling before hand and i couldnt stop crying.. she kept asking me if its what i wanted and if the choice was right for me..
but i felt like i didnt realy have a choice becuase of what my doctor had told me.
i had to have an ultra sound and the doctor said he didnt think i was pregnant because he couldnt see a baby..
so i was getting more and more upset thinking that i was never even pregnant in the first place , but then after doing a vaginal ultrasound for almost half an hour the doctor finaly confirmed that i was pregnant..
weeks had passed and i was still thinking i was pregnant.. and anyone who had asked how the baby was.. i just told them it was doing fine because i dint want to admit to myself that there wasnt a baby anymore.. and i would catch myself rubbing my belly and doing things that pregnant people would do. . i assumed that i was behaving like this because i was not coping very well and i was grieveing and thats why i was in denial..
4 weeks passed and then i got my period. then 3 days of nothing.. then my period for 2 weeks straight. and that confirmed for me that i wasnt pregnant.but i still believed that i was pregnant. because i still felt like i had something inside me and i was still feeling sick like i was before hand..
yesterday i felt something i hadnt felt before.. like a vibrating feeling in my stomach/ maybe kicking... (obviously i dont know what a baby kicking feels like,, so its hard for me to identify)
i did a pregnancy test last night. it was positive..
the information pack i got from the hosptial said that a pregnancy test would say postive a few weeks after because of my hormones etc.. but its been 12 weeks!!!
im extremely confused!
is it possible that they didnt get the baby because it was so hard for them to find....
is that even possible...
or is it a new baby..
am i 5 months pregnant or only a few weeks pregnant?
i need to go have an ultra sound but im so scared to go to the doctor..
im going to ring my gran for some grandmotherly advice..
3 months ago i was pregnant and ended up having to have a medical abortion because of problems i have with my ovaries and uterus etc..
i was 10 weeks pregnant. the whole experience at the hospital was shitty...
i had to have counceling before hand and i couldnt stop crying.. she kept asking me if its what i wanted and if the choice was right for me..
but i felt like i didnt realy have a choice becuase of what my doctor had told me.
i had to have an ultra sound and the doctor said he didnt think i was pregnant because he couldnt see a baby..
so i was getting more and more upset thinking that i was never even pregnant in the first place , but then after doing a vaginal ultrasound for almost half an hour the doctor finaly confirmed that i was pregnant..
weeks had passed and i was still thinking i was pregnant.. and anyone who had asked how the baby was.. i just told them it was doing fine because i dint want to admit to myself that there wasnt a baby anymore.. and i would catch myself rubbing my belly and doing things that pregnant people would do. . i assumed that i was behaving like this because i was not coping very well and i was grieveing and thats why i was in denial..
4 weeks passed and then i got my period. then 3 days of nothing.. then my period for 2 weeks straight. and that confirmed for me that i wasnt pregnant.but i still believed that i was pregnant. because i still felt like i had something inside me and i was still feeling sick like i was before hand..
yesterday i felt something i hadnt felt before.. like a vibrating feeling in my stomach/ maybe kicking... (obviously i dont know what a baby kicking feels like,, so its hard for me to identify)
i did a pregnancy test last night. it was positive..
the information pack i got from the hosptial said that a pregnancy test would say postive a few weeks after because of my hormones etc.. but its been 12 weeks!!!
im extremely confused!
is it possible that they didnt get the baby because it was so hard for them to find....
is that even possible...
or is it a new baby..
am i 5 months pregnant or only a few weeks pregnant?
i need to go have an ultra sound but im so scared to go to the doctor..
im going to ring my gran for some grandmotherly advice..
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I only have my kids to buy for we just do a big christmas family thing where we all put in $100 and have a big piss up and food no presents. its fun and no pressure. I'll buy my wife something as well.