I can't recall the last time I got so many unsolicited complements from strangers. This has been such a wonderful night! The last few days have been pretty sucky and I've been having a hard time getting myself motivated to do anything at all, like go to yoga, or get off the couch at all after coming home from work, or change my sheets or...
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It's raining. A fine mist drifts down outside my window and I can see my breath, even in the house. As I watch the steady fall of silent rain, larger drops cascade from the eves in nonsense patterns. The black cat is cuddling with my cellphone, her little nose pressed right into the corner of it, her tail under her chin.
Winters are difficult. I...
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I have been feeling rather overflowing with emotion. It has stunted my ability to participate with the world in other ways, has kept me on the couch feeling only able to absorb this semblance of reality passively. I am still. The thought of yoga is daunting, though not in the weighted way of a person who has not recently exercised. It is the prospect of...
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bridgetwnpeddler:
GAH!!! Guilty as charged. 
But in my defense and plea for a more lenient sentence, you kind of fell of SG also and I thought it was because you were so engrossed in having your beau so close again.
hehe... fall down go boom. hehe.. I like it
But in my defense and plea for a more lenient sentence, you kind of fell of SG also and I thought it was because you were so engrossed in having your beau so close again.
hehe... fall down go boom. hehe.. I like it
solipsis:
I've heard of Roanoke, because of the Steve Austin/Today is the Day connection, but I haven't actually heard anything by them yet.
I think whichever song you sent was too large for YSI, because you have to log in to get it, and I don't have an account. I'm found some Myspace samples though, and I definitely dig. You may be like Ocean or Buried At Sea (broken up) if you like this kind of sludge.
I think whichever song you sent was too large for YSI, because you have to log in to get it, and I don't have an account. I'm found some Myspace samples though, and I definitely dig. You may be like Ocean or Buried At Sea (broken up) if you like this kind of sludge.
I'm addicted to abc.com because i can spend hours at a time watching tv. this is a bad thing because there's a ton of stuff i should be doing, a ton of stuff i'd rather do, but i'm not. i'm just watching tv.
A few nights ago I went to see El Olio Wolof because a friend of mine plays keyboard and flute in the band. I probably would have enjoyed it regardless because she's cool, and likely I would have even bought a shirt. But, really, they were ridiculously good. I bought their cd, but was sad to learn that because Jami's only been playing with them...
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Pan's Labyrinth.
Seriously. Frightening. Beautiful. Incredible.
Life is still hard. But that's what happens, right? I've been thinking about the fact that when I was younger I really wanted to teach art. Maybe I should be doing that. Maybe it's time to get an MFA. Teaching credentials. Or look for Charter Schools near by.
Lost is such a strange feeling.
Sleep
Seriously. Frightening. Beautiful. Incredible.
Life is still hard. But that's what happens, right? I've been thinking about the fact that when I was younger I really wanted to teach art. Maybe I should be doing that. Maybe it's time to get an MFA. Teaching credentials. Or look for Charter Schools near by.
Lost is such a strange feeling.
Sleep
dr_lizardo:
Uh, thanks?
I've never done meth or any other hard substance and I'm not planning to start.
I was indeed thinking of doing books on tape, or CD depending. Thinking of teaching myself Japanese.
I actually interviewed for an art teaching position one time. I'm great at pottery but I can hardly draw at all.
I've never done meth or any other hard substance and I'm not planning to start.
I was indeed thinking of doing books on tape, or CD depending. Thinking of teaching myself Japanese.
I actually interviewed for an art teaching position one time. I'm great at pottery but I can hardly draw at all.
dr_lizardo:
Hey
Well, the japanese thing is a plan for when I have my own truck. I spose I could have asked my trainer if he wanted to learn japanese as well but that was kind of outside my thought process. Mostly I think about being lonely, and missing my cats. There will be enough going on on the road to keep my mind occupied I expect. Bringing a buncha books and a sketch pad. Right now my sketch pad appears to be the posession of some kind of unhinged obsessive person with a fascination for drawing circles. But it's just me trying to train myself to visualize something and trace on the paper what I'm attempting to visualize.
Well, the japanese thing is a plan for when I have my own truck. I spose I could have asked my trainer if he wanted to learn japanese as well but that was kind of outside my thought process. Mostly I think about being lonely, and missing my cats. There will be enough going on on the road to keep my mind occupied I expect. Bringing a buncha books and a sketch pad. Right now my sketch pad appears to be the posession of some kind of unhinged obsessive person with a fascination for drawing circles. But it's just me trying to train myself to visualize something and trace on the paper what I'm attempting to visualize.
I'm trying to make money. I'm trying to put time into painting (2 hours a day) and I'm trying to find a new job. None of these things seem to be working out too well.
I have been painting, but I'm using watercolors because apparently I hate myself and it's going slowly. Really slowly. Also, my paper is warping and I don't think I can...
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I have been painting, but I'm using watercolors because apparently I hate myself and it's going slowly. Really slowly. Also, my paper is warping and I don't think I can...
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dorwayin:
I would absolutely kill myself if I lost my vision. 
dr_lizardo:
Wow, glad to hear you did that.
First house fight. I don't really feel like dwelling on it, but it is bringing up some other interesting issues:
1) Where did I get my assertive and confrontational qualities? My father was the kind of shy person growing up that would wait on stoops for hours for his friends rather than knock on doors. And although my mom seems like she'd be assertive, I'm...
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1) Where did I get my assertive and confrontational qualities? My father was the kind of shy person growing up that would wait on stoops for hours for his friends rather than knock on doors. And although my mom seems like she'd be assertive, I'm...
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dr_lizardo:
Well, with each of your parents having 46 total chromosomes, the total number of combinations that they can achieve via sexual reproduction is about 70 trillion, buncha different people that might pop out of your mom after 9.5 m onths, so to speak . Or maybe you're adopted.
I would have advised against moving in with a friend. I had a friend as my boss for couple of years and it pretty muck killed our friendship when I sucked at my job and eventually she had to fire me. It may work out all right though, but staking a friendship on long term close quarters compatibility is rather a gamble.
I would have advised against moving in with a friend. I had a friend as my boss for couple of years and it pretty muck killed our friendship when I sucked at my job and eventually she had to fire me. It may work out all right though, but staking a friendship on long term close quarters compatibility is rather a gamble.
Once again, I'm feeling too much like a failure as an artist. The only thing that makes me a failure, of course, is myself. I've given myself a task. I guess it's kind of like a new year's resolution, because it's starting at the new year, but I don't really do new year's resolutions, so maybe not. My task is to do a self portrait...
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dr_lizardo:
The daily self portrait res is a pretty innovative one compared to the usual. I hope it goes somewhere. I love art and I think being an artist would be inordinately cool but I have very crappy motivational traits. Have a good year, at any rate.
ghaaa. holidays are fun, but things do get overwhelming. i don't like to clean. and i hate my job. but i like buying presents for people.
muah.
muah.
aegies:
breakfast was good. we should do it again, soon.
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bridgetwnpeddler:
ooooh lucky you to have him home!
dr_lizardo:
I think a person't face can often tell you a lot about who they were, but it depends on the particular image and particular person. Certainly it tells you more a bout the person that a name and a date can tell you. It also depends a lot on how deeply the viewer wishes to see things.
Now it's just a matter of waiting. D&N will arrive any moment now... C, tomorrow afternoon. J&E, well, we'll be lucky if they get here by midnight tomorrow night. But that's ok. Then there's J, and she's not coming, which is sad. Some douche hit her car. J&D should get here tomorrow sometime, though who knows when. And I don't know if E is coming...
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bridgetwnpeddler:
And??? well??? how is it all going?
Have a great Thanksgiving... I know I will.
ps.. still love the CD and even with your letter my GF was UBER Jealous... sigh. Just my lot in life. At least the job is good and I love it there compared the the horror that was UPS.
Have a great Thanksgiving... I know I will.
ps.. still love the CD and even with your letter my GF was UBER Jealous... sigh. Just my lot in life. At least the job is good and I love it there compared the the horror that was UPS.
107 degrees? I am sorry but that sounds like a miserable hell on earth to me.
nope, nope, nope