lwieise

I was just pondering last night after I couldn't fall asleep...I'm hate being unique. Sometimes...I just get so tired of not falling into a "scene" or a pigeonhole. I feel like everywhere I go and everything I do makes me feel like a total outsider. For once, I just want to fit into a nice neat little category. Like, "Oh, that Aaron kid is so punk/emo/goth/indie." I guess its not that I don't fit into any one category its more like so many other people do and/or try to. It used to be that I didn't understand myself...I've been through so many different phases where I thought I wanted to be this type of person or be in this "scene." Then I stop... Now its more like I have resigned my mind to not be pigeonholed and try to pick and chose what I want.

Par exemple: My favorite mix CD has Marilyn Manson, the Beatle, VNV Nation, Frou Frou, the Clash and a motley mix of other misplaced music. My wardrobe ranges from borderline preppy to borderline goth. I'm a theatre geek but my interest is psychology and I like to smoke, go to shows, and clubs. I'm straight but I don't give a fuck about gender rules, being close to guys (even gay ones). Lets not even get into the people I hang out with...they're sorta like that mix CD..wouldn't be caught dead together but somehow they coexist..

I really don't know where I'm going with this...I'm just sorta talking out my ass. Its late and I need to formulate my thoughts before I go and tell them to the world.

Maybe I'm just being a dumbass by wanted to be labeled.
Am I?
Sometimes...labels are comforting though.