Well here it goes, my 15 year relationship is official over, i have no idea what to do or how to start over. Things are chaotic and i'm lost in my own misery right now. I'm approaching new ground and don't know where i'll find the strength to continue but i know i will. I can't let this get in my way of finding hapiness. The one is out there and I am committed to finding her. I'm not perfect I wish I was and I'm not saying that i wasn't part of the problem, cause I was.
I will endure, the vamp will continue to live through whatever adversities life throws at me. But for now I mourn, I dwell on what was, and what i could have changed. In the end i guess it's for not, but I just wanna close my eyes and try and get a grip on my life. Where's the place for a almost 40 year old goth guy, where i go from here i don't know but I do know that eventually I'll find my way.
I will endure, the vamp will continue to live through whatever adversities life throws at me. But for now I mourn, I dwell on what was, and what i could have changed. In the end i guess it's for not, but I just wanna close my eyes and try and get a grip on my life. Where's the place for a almost 40 year old goth guy, where i go from here i don't know but I do know that eventually I'll find my way.
elijah:
I'm sorry things aren't great for you right now. It's hard being lonely, trust me I know. Just try and keep busy and try to get out for some fun with friends if you feel up to it. Or break stuff. That works for me 
lvvamp:
thanks for the advice ill take it to heart and try and keep my head clear 