my lil bro just called and it seems like my dog is dying. she's like 9 years old, we got her when i was 16. i begged for her and i kinda think we only got her cause i was 16 in high school and our house was for sale and i was throwing a fit cause i didnt want to move from queens to long island in the middle of high school. i was the kinda teen that slept till 2 or 3 in the afternoon..not like that has changed i'll still do that if i can....but i got up every morning that summer bright and early and fed her and took her out and took care of her. i miss her cause i live so far away now and when i go home to visit she get so super excited that it's me and pees all over cause she just can't contain herself that i'm home. last year my parents took her to the vet and they said it seeme like she might have kidney disease and that her kidneys might start failing but she was doing great full of energy etc until a couple of weeks ago when they took her to the vet again and now they have to give her some kind of liquid injections 2-3 times a week. well she hasn't been eating for the past couple of days and my bro said they just took her to the emergency vet because she is throwing up blood. he said they are gonna keep her over night and that she will be fine, how can she be fine? i don't want her to suffer but i dont want to see her go
i haven't talked to my dad since jan. and my brother wants me to call him and i don't understand why everything always has to be on my shoulders. i didnt do anything wrong but my family is so fucked up. me and my mom didnt talk for like 3 months cause of the whole dad thing and now when we talk it is so wierd and distant and forced. we used to talk like 3 times a day, now it's maybe twice a week and wierd. my lil bro started crying to me cause this all stresses him out cause he is such a fucking suck ass and worships the ground my parents walk on and doesn't seem to see how fucked up they are. but i guess he wouldn't they treat him like gold and i am the fucking outcast. i wish i could trade my family in for a new one.
to top it all off i was already stressing hard tonight cause i am dead ass broke, my job is cool but i make now money..not enough to survive anyway. our lease is up soon, we have to move next month, haven't started looking for a place and i dont have enough money. everything is up in the air. and everything thing really sux tonight.
i'm drunk and sad
thank god for my lil brody.

i haven't talked to my dad since jan. and my brother wants me to call him and i don't understand why everything always has to be on my shoulders. i didnt do anything wrong but my family is so fucked up. me and my mom didnt talk for like 3 months cause of the whole dad thing and now when we talk it is so wierd and distant and forced. we used to talk like 3 times a day, now it's maybe twice a week and wierd. my lil bro started crying to me cause this all stresses him out cause he is such a fucking suck ass and worships the ground my parents walk on and doesn't seem to see how fucked up they are. but i guess he wouldn't they treat him like gold and i am the fucking outcast. i wish i could trade my family in for a new one.
to top it all off i was already stressing hard tonight cause i am dead ass broke, my job is cool but i make now money..not enough to survive anyway. our lease is up soon, we have to move next month, haven't started looking for a place and i dont have enough money. everything is up in the air. and everything thing really sux tonight.
i'm drunk and sad

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I'm so sorry about your dog. I went through the same thing with my old dog that I grew up with too. It's hard to not be able to be there.
As far as ANTM, I agree, I don't like Jade either. I do really like Joanie a lot. She has impressed me. I loved how she did in that photoshoot. And I really wish they had kicked off Sarah. Ugh. It bugs me a lot.
Are you guys wanting to stay up in Boulder?