1:45 am monday early- ok now i should really be asleep. i think i'm either going into my mildly manic mode, or else i'm just procrastinating. because i know i actually have to get up and do things tommorow. in other news i took a sexxy ass new photoset that hopefully i'll put up sometime this week 
damn reminds me i still need to tell my new boy that i even do this kind of shit.. maybe i'll surprize him online and send them to him 
dont ask. no. i wont send them to you. you'll be able to see them soon anyway. which brings me to .wet. yes tragically taking nekked pictures of myself indeed turns me on. go figure. so does drinking chocolate milk. and looking at other girls chests 
and i've decided that 1. my last blog didnt make any sense, and that 2, i have a crush on this boy because he doesnt give me as much (attention) as i want. once again, go figure. i'm kind of giddy and silly when i'm crushin so please forgive me. and dammit i really dont want to go to sleep. perhaps i will continue reading hannibal and see if it will put me to sleep. and as some might say "sweet dreams" but you see, my dreams are never sweet. They always are full of narrow roads on windy mountains with cliffs in the rain, or being chased, or bombs in the air, or sometimes buried things, or covered things, or children. there are some good moments. in one i was holding a small girl 7or8 yr old's hand. it was comforting. the children they're always that age 6-7-8. i dream of other things but i forget. and i keep saying i'm going to write them down, but always forget, or think i will remember. here's to remembering.
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Sunday 9:42pm - oh my fucking god. my internet finally works. oh my fucking god. thank jesus. i mean thank buddah. i mean thank someone for knowing what the fuck they were doing for once. praise hallelujah. amen.
p.s. say happy birthday to truthslayer
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1:45 am - have you guys ever had those blogs where you say to yourself,
that's so stupid. why did i even write that. random thoughts. rumination. oh woe on me. pity is not very pretty. and how easy it is to make a life full of excuses. more randomness. sometimes kissing one boy makes you realize how much you'd rather just be kissing the one you had in the first place. its not a full blown crush, but dammit tuesday is not coming soon enough. and when tuesday comes i might still have to wait. i feel like a slut in my profile pic. i think i'm going to change it. what else is going on in the world today? my god. just please please please for the love of someone or something, dont go to the mall to buy clothes. i was attempting to buy work clothes, because somehow however hard i've tried, i've ended up back in the mall
starvation just wasnt looking too good. its amazing how awful it really can be. the clothes that is. we should all just be naked. yes. nekked. stop being so god damn ashamed, and run around naked. 
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10:17 pm - i'm so sad when i think about the fact that the only thing i want in life, is going to take me forever to get. a house i can live in with a real piano, that i can play whenever i want. 
damn reminds me i still need to tell my new boy that i even do this kind of shit.. maybe i'll surprize him online and send them to him dont ask. no. i wont send them to you. you'll be able to see them soon anyway. which brings me to .wet. yes tragically taking nekked pictures of myself indeed turns me on. go figure. so does drinking chocolate milk. and looking at other girls chests and i've decided that 1. my last blog didnt make any sense, and that 2, i have a crush on this boy because he doesnt give me as much (attention) as i want. once again, go figure. i'm kind of giddy and silly when i'm crushin so please forgive me. and dammit i really dont want to go to sleep. perhaps i will continue reading hannibal and see if it will put me to sleep. and as some might say "sweet dreams" but you see, my dreams are never sweet. They always are full of narrow roads on windy mountains with cliffs in the rain, or being chased, or bombs in the air, or sometimes buried things, or covered things, or children. there are some good moments. in one i was holding a small girl 7or8 yr old's hand. it was comforting. the children they're always that age 6-7-8. i dream of other things but i forget. and i keep saying i'm going to write them down, but always forget, or think i will remember. here's to remembering.
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Sunday 9:42pm - oh my fucking god. my internet finally works. oh my fucking god. thank jesus. i mean thank buddah. i mean thank someone for knowing what the fuck they were doing for once. praise hallelujah. amen.
p.s. say happy birthday to truthslayer
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1:45 am - have you guys ever had those blogs where you say to yourself,
that's so stupid. why did i even write that. random thoughts. rumination. oh woe on me. pity is not very pretty. and how easy it is to make a life full of excuses. more randomness. sometimes kissing one boy makes you realize how much you'd rather just be kissing the one you had in the first place. its not a full blown crush, but dammit tuesday is not coming soon enough. and when tuesday comes i might still have to wait. i feel like a slut in my profile pic. i think i'm going to change it. what else is going on in the world today? my god. just please please please for the love of someone or something, dont go to the mall to buy clothes. i was attempting to buy work clothes, because somehow however hard i've tried, i've ended up back in the mall
starvation just wasnt looking too good. its amazing how awful it really can be. the clothes that is. we should all just be naked. yes. nekked. stop being so god damn ashamed, and run around naked.
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10:17 pm - i'm so sad when i think about the fact that the only thing i want in life, is going to take me forever to get. a house i can live in with a real piano, that i can play whenever i want.
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Sedh