Hi, I attached a wonderful photo of my body simply because I do not know which photo would fit the topic I want to tell lol
I love to turn my soul inside out, because I feel safe with the suicide girls team, I never had a chance to tell everything about my life, I thought that I was telling to nothing, thank you for being with me!
In my life, fate breaks me every day and reworks, she laughs and gives me the most unexpected situations that do not allow me to procrastinate, I don’t understand, is it a boxing ring or a passionate dance? Ha!
I don’t know how correctly it is to talk about problems that, in the opinion of society, should remain a secret, intimate topic, what should I do if I don’t want to be silent?
Some followers know from Instagram that I have been living alone since I was 13 years old. My dad has schizophrenia, and when his outbursts occur, no one close to him will be good for him. It so happened that one day my father kicked me out because I could not find him information from Wikipedia for a trip that was not really catastrophically important. I promised myself that I would not return to my parental home and I would climb a life to a better life, no matter what. This is the most powerful emotional memory from childhood, this is my start. This may seem strange, but now I am grateful to my father for the opportunity to be independent. When I was 14 years old, I worked, rented an apartment, went to school, I already knew how to cook well and keep my house clean. At that moment I felt like a girl of steel, a strong woman, and this is really cool, despite the terrible situation.
It's funny, but the second situation that broke me is the decision to get a cat. It was a really serious step that I had been thinking about for half a year. I thought that my cat was my child, that his life was in my hands, and I could not let him down. I created additional problems for myself, but I was not alone in this world.
The third situation is the first serious relationship. Two children are trying to share household problems as adults, learn to love, respect, accept and forgive. It was difficult for me to trust a man, because the most important man in life betrayed me and made me suffer, throwing me out of the street without money and at least some chance of survival. 4 years of relationships, 4 years of quarrels, my outlook seemed to have broken from the scale of the apartment to the scale of the universe, I met another family, for me it was strange that his parents (adults) embrace, kiss each other and laugh! That family life is not hard labor, but paradise! I set myself the goal of achieving the same enlightenment and mutual understanding with the second half, but it was too late, the relationship was hanging on a knife blade.
A few years after breaking up with that guy, I decided to try again to dive into this ocean called love and find the bottom, which will be another start to another “clean page” in my life! Tests do not end ...
that's how I became myself!
Thanks for reading this. homework for me is a trip to a psychologist, I look at the situation from the other side, and I like the conclusions to which I come!🦔✨
@missy @rambo