lustfulhate

My family is coming over to visit for the long weekend, and bringing my 4 year-old nephew as well good times.

I was planing on going to see "Scott Pilgrim vs. The world" for a 3rd time, but I think today might be the last day in theaters, going to have to wait for the Blue Ray to come out Oh well, I'll watch it then non-stop too lol



Now back to core of all my misery and happiness: my not-girlfriend Kiki


If you are going to be in a long distance relationship, you need trust, if not it would crumble, this is what I believe. And that's my biggest problem, I don't trust this girl, I don't trust all her male friends, and sucks cause she pretty only has male friends, and now that she is unemployed, she pretty much goes out drinking with some of them all the time.
The other night I asked her to make it official, to be my girlfriend and she got upset, said she's been in long distance relationships in the past and it didn't work, she got cheated on, bla bla bla. So she says she loves me, that we are in a relationship, but doesn't want to be in a long distance relationship...so what the fuck are we? I have no clue, two people who love each other? Guess I need to figure out if I really love her or not.
The lack of trust form my part now became worst because what i got from her speech is that she doesn't want to call it girlfriend/boyfriend so she can bail as soon as either I sleep with somebody or she does.
This is to much for me, to many questions, not enought answers, not to mention an entire fucking country between us.

I hope y'all have a wonderful wonderful Labor day weekend.

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