luridsky

I am stressed out beyond belief, I came to the realization tonight that I only have a month to find a new place, and no money saved. I'm down to working one job that doesn't pay nearly enough a month to cover rent and now that everyone is home from college for the summer all the good paying jobs are taken. I spent the night crying because I can't even afford to buy myself a new pair of jeans (which I am in desprate need of, I ripped a hole in the last pair of nice jeans I have today.) I have no idea what to do, I've looked at appartments around my area but everything is so expensive I won't be able to do it with out a roommate, the only problem with that is all the people I know are going away in September and it's really not worth having someone live with you for a month or two and then leave you with the rest of the rent to pay.

I thought about calling my grandparents and asking them for a loan but I know what their answer is going to be. Those people could give two shits about me, I've never asked them for anything but acceptance and to acknowledge the fact that I exist but just couldn't ever seem to do it. Lord knows asking my father would be like comitting murder. My mom said that she'd help me with rent but she really can't afford to. I need help and I don't know how or where to get it.


sorry about this rant I just really need to vent right now and if I can't do it here then where the hell else do I have?