I fear I may have gone MAD
I have come to realize that I'm spreading myself far too thin. I work two jobs 8 hours a day, 7 days a week. And I'm still in school so that makes for a very busy schedule with little to no down time.
I feel as though I'm on the verge of a breakdown. Mentally, emotionally, and physically. I barely get any sleep anymore, I haven't been eating either (not because I don't want to, because I seriously don't have time to eat.) I feel like a walking zombie. I thought about dropping school but if I do I will get no where in life. I am still in high school and the school that I go to was designed for students with behaviorial problems, well guess what?! THAT'S NOT ME! I'm the nerd, the straight A "know it all" (at least that's what my classmates all call me) I feel completely unchallanged. I only go for 3 hours 2 nights a week but those 6 hours every week are pure torture. These kids I go to school with are a bunch of kindergardeners. They yell about the dumbest shit like "you took my chair, I called that chair, WAH WAH WAH! I need help. . .or something. . .anything to relieve some of this stress.
San Diego is in 8 days and that willl be a bit of time for me to relax, but as soon as I get back I have to look for an appartment and that's no spring day in the park. I just need a day off. A day to sit around my house and do abso-fucking-loutly NOTHING!
Oh BTW I bleached my hair again tonight. . and once again it didn't turn out. The ends never take and I end up looking like a complete idiot walking around with her roots bleached. This just isn't my time to shine.
I have come to realize that I'm spreading myself far too thin. I work two jobs 8 hours a day, 7 days a week. And I'm still in school so that makes for a very busy schedule with little to no down time.
I feel as though I'm on the verge of a breakdown. Mentally, emotionally, and physically. I barely get any sleep anymore, I haven't been eating either (not because I don't want to, because I seriously don't have time to eat.) I feel like a walking zombie. I thought about dropping school but if I do I will get no where in life. I am still in high school and the school that I go to was designed for students with behaviorial problems, well guess what?! THAT'S NOT ME! I'm the nerd, the straight A "know it all" (at least that's what my classmates all call me) I feel completely unchallanged. I only go for 3 hours 2 nights a week but those 6 hours every week are pure torture. These kids I go to school with are a bunch of kindergardeners. They yell about the dumbest shit like "you took my chair, I called that chair, WAH WAH WAH! I need help. . .or something. . .anything to relieve some of this stress.
San Diego is in 8 days and that willl be a bit of time for me to relax, but as soon as I get back I have to look for an appartment and that's no spring day in the park. I just need a day off. A day to sit around my house and do abso-fucking-loutly NOTHING!
Oh BTW I bleached my hair again tonight. . and once again it didn't turn out. The ends never take and I end up looking like a complete idiot walking around with her roots bleached. This just isn't my time to shine.
I used to guinea pig for a salon to get free hair cuts and mine would turn orange when they tried to bleach it. With these big ass clown feet of mine I wound up looking like Ronald MacDonald. But with developer it worked better, don't worry be happy