lurch83

hey people.

firstly tonight has been good. got drunk with two mates after talking about the girls they have and dearly love even though circumstances are fucked and i got to reflect on the one i let slip through my hands.

so basically to charmaine who would never read this anyway, i have to say, hmm, never would i dream of forgetting the impact you've had on my life. i've never been as content as when siiting with you doing nothing. or driving for two tanks of fuel just because we can, and definitely the 3am visits, just to chill and talk, about almost anything. you brought about the decision to make my left sleeve focus on the better things in my life, and suprise, you are the main picture in the whole thing. not like in a name, which in time can prove to be fatal. the picture is just for what you have done to keep me sane.

too bad i didnt take a chance when i should have. but maybe one day.

but all is good, a lesson learnt and shall never be forgotten. amazing how the ones that never were are always able to remain untainted in your mind, and shall always be preserved in the way they should and no bitterness will form from a small mistake that you resent. so in a way, she's always my angel. and for that i am eternally indebted.

since this is a song she got me addicted to i don't mind quoting it twice in two journals.
"Love
Me
Always and forever
It's hard to be strong when I crave you like I do"