lurch83

okay positive entry for once. don't have a heart attack please, some poor bastard would have to clean up the mess.

yesterday i had me a dream, first in a really long time. was visited by a pretty lady who did lots of unmentionables to me. this is the sleep after a friend "introduces" me to her friend. i haven't been smitten in a while and then the dream from outta no where. felt pretty damn refreshed after waking up. can't believe that there is more excitement after work. i just hope i don't self destruct this like every other.

any time i think yeah this is going ok, time to fuck it all up and say something really stupid cause it's easier to have an excuse to be stuck in a cold bed alone than it is to actually believe that not all woman are going to rip your fucking heart out. i just got bad luck with 3 out of 3 being cheating C@#*$. sorry to offend people but when they act like that they deserve it.

but it's time to actually take a chance and jump, and see if i can fly, glide or just splat. either way it's gotta be better than being alone like so many others, but if that is my biggest problem it ain't that bad anyway. i always have my other personalities to keep me occupied anyway. happy, grumpy, sour, downtrodden, annoying, saddistic, masochistic, know-it-all, smartarse, stupid, aggitated, passive, inquisitive and last but not least shithead. so it's not that bad.

so to all you people out there having a hard time the only suggestion i have is food and beer. my new philosophy on life

have fun boils and ghouls