I can't sleep.... and i have to be at work in the morning
I took a nap today that was entirely too long...
I had an interesting weekend... full of good times, interesting developements, and long talks... in all honesty this weekend was good but hard. I was tested in many ways and as always I am unsure of my decisions... this weekend was hard because I had an amazing night with someone that I care greatly for but know it wouldn't work out and it is hard for me to turn away from someone that i care for so deeply... but i had to... it would just end the way it did last time, with me being heartbroken again... he asked if it was because we have history but it is not the history, but the lack of future that hurts me... he said I am always overthinking, that I need to learn to turn my mind off, but i just can't, and he wouldn't like me as much if I did, I think...
on a happier note... I saw Beck on Saturday and I have now decided that one of my new life goals will be to at least hang out with him and possibly seduce him
Damn he was hot
I also have a lot of studio work to get done so tomorrow I order supplies...
I need to go camping soon...
I need some ice cream...
Will someone bring me some ice cream ?
no?
ok, I guess I will try and sleep ice cream-less
...V
I took a nap today that was entirely too long...
I had an interesting weekend... full of good times, interesting developements, and long talks... in all honesty this weekend was good but hard. I was tested in many ways and as always I am unsure of my decisions... this weekend was hard because I had an amazing night with someone that I care greatly for but know it wouldn't work out and it is hard for me to turn away from someone that i care for so deeply... but i had to... it would just end the way it did last time, with me being heartbroken again... he asked if it was because we have history but it is not the history, but the lack of future that hurts me... he said I am always overthinking, that I need to learn to turn my mind off, but i just can't, and he wouldn't like me as much if I did, I think...
on a happier note... I saw Beck on Saturday and I have now decided that one of my new life goals will be to at least hang out with him and possibly seduce him
Damn he was hot
I also have a lot of studio work to get done so tomorrow I order supplies...
I need to go camping soon...
I need some ice cream...
Will someone bring me some ice cream ?
no?
ok, I guess I will try and sleep ice cream-less
...V
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Ive never had the experience of having to keep someone at arms length, although I think that Im learning to so that now, and commenting in your journal, has made me realize that...
Maybe I should go and write about the thought process that you have started...
Thank you...LOL
And if your feeling daring, wanna go for ice cream this weekend??
Cheers
J