lulumae

Ever know someone who was the infuriating picture of serenity when you were at your most... freaky deaky? You know, when as awful as the idea is, you just want a reaction- but you're getting... nothing?

Ever feel like you have the sneaking suspicion that someone has you right where they want you, or perhaps... prefer you to be? Although if that was the case it would be entirely unintentional. It's just how it feels to you.

This is all, of course, only because you're letting yourself freak out and be in that emotional state. And you know that it's silly. You know that you should just relax and "take some time." Perhaps, "make peace" with the situation. But you know as soon as you just start to get a little comfortable... perhaps a little cozy... perhaps a little... content?... someone comes up behind you and frickin' drops a BOMB (you know those bombs.) that sends you right back from where you came.

I would like to note that all of these things happen because we let them happen. And these things can be worked on over time. But for know, I guess I'm just stuck faking it.

I'm breezy.

I just have three words to describe the way I feel today...

frustrated. frustrated. frustrated.

Mother Trucker.

XOX-L