That certainly is alot isn't it. No denying it. This time tomorrow, she will be here. There have been a few comments made on the fact that I seem to be spewing out some kind of radiation type bad energy (if you believe that sort of thing. Hippie). So how do I feel? That is the question now isn't it. I guess I am confused. Concerned. Excited. Utterly un-enthused. All at once. I've been a little shaky. I am back in the game. No eating. No sleeping. Existance provided by red bull. Support our good friends. How will this impact my life? Will I stop whoring? Will I have a new (old) partner? Will it be...What the fuck will it be? I can feel the old trying to slime it's head back in and infect me and drag me back to it. I don't want to go. I doubt whether I will ever be a bright sun shiney person, but I don't want to be what I was. I was a void. Black hole. Light sucker. If 'WE' can work in some sense without the old getting its hands on me, I will be happy. will have made significant progress. I guess will have more to say on that soon....
I was confronted about my blog posting recently. Accused of being an ego maniac that posts this garbage as though anyone at all cares what I have to say, or about what is going on in my life. I countered with the defense that, It is partially an exercise to keep me writing. Partially to keep friends that I don't have close contact with informed about my life. So what do you think. Good idea and useful tool? Or crutch of the ego maniacal and self obsessed? Should I cease and desist?? Or do you want to know?
I was confronted about my blog posting recently. Accused of being an ego maniac that posts this garbage as though anyone at all cares what I have to say, or about what is going on in my life. I countered with the defense that, It is partially an exercise to keep me writing. Partially to keep friends that I don't have close contact with informed about my life. So what do you think. Good idea and useful tool? Or crutch of the ego maniacal and self obsessed? Should I cease and desist?? Or do you want to know?
Love you all immensely. Self imposed exile starting today. Much to think about and process. Things are not what they seem. Or seemed. Or.....I just ate eggs and red bull and make no sense. Whichever you prefer. As I may have demonstrated in this last year, I have very little trouble upending my life and making drastic changes. I thought I had settled. But I may have been wrong. It may be that time again. It's been about 50 degrees. Lovely walking weather. I am confused. Don't know what to do. Some might say these are the worst times to make life altering choices. But. They are pussies. Careening at 1000 miles an hour. Progress? Regress more likely. Once again, maybe time for just some lateral movement. Just to rattle my cage. And yours. Thank you for blog thoughts. I enjoy writing them, so yes. Fuck all those stupid cock gobbler hatchet faces. We'll be seeing you. Take care....