So, 'talking' about things makes them a bit more real for me and helps me work things out in my head. Ordering the thoughts into words and pushing them down onto the paper/screen/keyboard.
A close friend of 10+ years passed away on Monday. I just got the details this morning. Siezures, unconsciousness, sky-rocketing body temperature, his body just burned out.
It is the first friend that I have known that has died. Of course, I never got to say goodbye. And don't give me that fucking bullshit about a funeral or services or whatever. That is not saying goodbye to the person.
I hope you aren't expecting anything profound. I am just ordering my thoughts a bit. I don't know if this is going to change me. I can feel things shifting, but nothing has settled. Only thing that is certain is that I will be different or the same. Maybe a better person, but possibly worse.
Please don't reply with any sort of condolences, I don't think I will.... react well to that.
A close friend of 10+ years passed away on Monday. I just got the details this morning. Siezures, unconsciousness, sky-rocketing body temperature, his body just burned out.
It is the first friend that I have known that has died. Of course, I never got to say goodbye. And don't give me that fucking bullshit about a funeral or services or whatever. That is not saying goodbye to the person.
I hope you aren't expecting anything profound. I am just ordering my thoughts a bit. I don't know if this is going to change me. I can feel things shifting, but nothing has settled. Only thing that is certain is that I will be different or the same. Maybe a better person, but possibly worse.
Please don't reply with any sort of condolences, I don't think I will.... react well to that.