lukawarm

*BIGBIGYAWNS*

right. so.
the rain fell in droves tonight as my car cascaded against the wet pavement sliding along the planes of hydro.... when i got home, i clicked my key into the keyhole to notice for the first time in months how much lighter my chain got with the release (5 trips, placed atop on a letter of thanks, and regrets) - those keys that shackled me there.
to that congress street across from the cafe.
and for the first time in months (ok, more like 4th time) i realized how much lighter my heart had become, now free of the lock wrapped around...
too much metal makes my bloodflow thin.
but throughout the din in my chambers, seeing that face tonight brought me back....not to the heaviness but the space in the place we used to share..bed cradled between those walls (and us. bare.)
either way, though... the music once again, live.. and it being a huge vice of mine... much appreciated.. to see these artists get up in front of strangers or perhaps some known, and bear thems(ou)lves in a way that not even friends know them.. to me, is incredible.
also so inspiring. and a good kick in the ass to get my shit up and going.
ive been wasting too much time...
drinking expensive wine
sitting in a slouch on a couch regressing into what always was.
until i broke the cycle and vowed never to return again, look back and then,
it broke me...
as easy as a twig under a childs foot...

now to drown in some sleep inducing flower water.
seep into sweet dreams.....