Hey Gals and Guys! I hope everyone is well! Thanks for the sweet sweet love, I'm getting! I'm using this opportunity that I have to say, "THANK YOU!", and also to make a confession...
I have had a two light psychedelic experiences in one week. The first was my first attempt, an introduction, if you will to acid. I am all for deconstructing my thoughts, beliefs, and habits, that may in fact no longer serve me, in life anymore. So, I did the deed, and interacted with a few interesting ideas. One being that:
I feel as though the human experience is both profoundly personal, and yet profoundly collective as well. I can feel the domino effect of both positivity and negativity all around me! Though, I do my up most to stay grounded, centered, and be my own source of energy [not latching on to other people, events, places]. This can be challenging as fuck, but it IS doable! For the rest of this week, I've been dealing with attachment, especially to feeling a certain way.
Another idea, one that I am going to work with is:
I JUST WANNA BE A DIRTY SHAMAN! - Flowing, and connecting with the rhythms of the earth, instead of the rhythms of the nine to five, corporate world. I love connecting with spirit, just as much as connecting to the earth. I am highly anticipating the next Equinox- Spring in my region, warmer weather, and NO PANTS! I want to take a hike from the internet this summer, to strengthen my connection to nature, the earth, and the connection between all us humans, plans, and animals. More than DJing, this just makes sense to me, on the deepest level of my being.
I am confident that I can combine my interests in brain, and humanistic psychology, shamanism, healing, and the artistic expression of the moment to help crack down on human suffering. I like seeing genuinely happy faces, and inner peace radiating from within my brethren of this world. The whole time I was on LSD, I had in the back of my mind the topic of what it truly takes to be happy. I know that true love, and true happiness lie within, so what a better way of connecting with this dream then to start with bringing myself into a peaceful, balanced, and genuinely happy state. My trip wasn't enough to get me hallucinating. It was just an introduction, a sweet, tasty introduction! Mmmmm! x)
Last night, a good friend of mine offered me some mushrooms, a light amount again. Delighted, I wanted to see what would happen. Little did we know that taking them at night, in a heated house, with a comfortable bed... it just made the two of us really tired... Haha! I feel like that trip could have been more eventful, but that is what the summer is for, right? ;)
My confession is, that I want to experiment MOAR! I don't plan on going over the edge. I am just very interested to see how we interact with these two substances, as well as other natural tools, and entheogens. A few pressing question that I am in the process of looking at, especially with pot is:
What do I repress when I am sober, that I don't repress when I am high?! How can I bring the qualities I exude while high, into my every day, sober experience?
I guess this will be continued at a later time. I don't feel like wearing my thinking cap tonight. :P
I am happy that there are people like Terence McKenna out there, who I feel understand parts of the frustration I feel with mainstream society...
In other news, I am just enjoying the ever changing, unfolding present moment. I know that everything that I encounter is meant to teach me just what I need to learn in order to progress further in life, so that I can be a more effective human being; for myself, and for the community at large. I am so thankful to be surrounded by the blessing that I have in my life. These hawk feathers are just beautiful! I feel very drawn to the Falcon, the Hawk, the Eagle, the Dragonfly, and the cat. Throughout the year, I definitely see a lot of these animals. Recently, I've gone through a few months where I would see at least one hawk a week, drawing my attention to it, in order for me to heed its message. - Telling me to look at life-my life through a broader perspective. Its helped me see that I am not a victim of any circumstance that is presented to me, no matter how I choose to feel when I am in an uncomfortable place/feeling. So happy for the reoccurring, and powerful Hawk medicine! :3
Once the mind has been stretched out, it can no longer go back to how it used to operate. We all are doing the best we can, with the knowledge that we have, but the more I learn *drum roll the cliche insert*- the more I know I don't know. What I have known for 20 something years, and counting, has been handed to me through other people. I am taking this time period to learn some of these things over for myself, and to let go of what is harmful, and that is no longer serving me. Its already March of 2014, and I intend to make the most of the last three weeks of winter, for I know the signs are always pointing to grand opportunity, and powerful lessons, even what may seem like cold, brutal lessons. [they're really not cold- its just the weather]
I'm so so so so thankful for lots of things.Avocados are on my top ten list for sure, though! :)
On my light LSD trip. I got so happy and Buddha like (Peaceful) :D
This is coming to MR April 16, 2014. Not March 31st. I think its better this way. To leave some space between sets.
Well, There you have it. I have confessed to more than one thing, and I have no regrets! Just plans to do some real inner work, which I want to incorporate into my life's work.
Lots of love, hugs, kisses, and good vibes!
xo
Luffy
