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Shit... Upon looking at the calendar today, I realized that my birthday is one month away... Why is time creeping up on me like this?!?! I hate birthdays! The only thing they seem to do is remind me that I'm getting older.

What Am I going to do this year for it? Nothing. Well, Nothing like was done in previous years. If its hot enough, I'm going to go to the nude beach on the island with my boyfriend, and maybe get a few other friends to come with me, and we can celebrate it there. I Love the nude beach, and want to go back as soon as I can!
I also kinda want to try some magic mushrooms for my birthday! Never done so before, and I think a small group of friends and I would really enjoy a break from traditional birthday parties, and just place our minds in a different place.
Scary, but I actually share my birthday with this guy

Salvidor Dali. So when you get to know me, you'll see just how unusual I am. I don't even care, I LOVE my quirkiness!

This is for kinanika, who has a blog about sets in the rain.
I did a shoot in the rain a few years ago, and here are a few shots from it.


I NEEEED to do a set in the rain! This is going to be a goal of mine for the near future!

I hope Everyone has a good Easter weekend! I had a fantastic Weekend! Lots of my boyfriends mom's carrot cake... I would actually sacrifice a whole lot for that cake if I had to... mmmmmm!
My boyfriend also met my little brother and step mom for the first time, and we spent some time at my dad's house. It was lovely! I caught a picture of him dozed off.


I also got my skipping rope back!!

Do you know what that means for my bum?? I have been slacking on my exercise lately, but I'm back in full swing, now that my running shoes and skipping rope are with me again. By the next time I'm ready to do a set, my body will be a machine! I'm so excited!!



Please excuse my rampant shouting, but JOB... WHERE IS YOU BE?! I HAVE PLACES TO TRAVEL TO, PEOPLE TO SEE, A NEKKID BODY TO SHOOT! WHERE ARE YOUUUU?!
Aren't there any Staff Photographers passing through Toronto any time soon? This world is so small, in terms of ability to travel and connectedness, and yet it is so big... I can't get anywhere at this moment in time!

And WOOOW... To Everyone who keeps commenting on my set, I can't thank you enough! I know this theme isn't for everybody, and I know it seems like I'm hiding, but I am just merely drawing attention to something that I truly believe in. Every day, I'm learning that YOU are your BEST Doctor, psychologist, nutritionist, scientist, etc. You and only you have the power to 'heal' yourself... even if you aren't broken/injured? You know what I mean. Instead of paying people lots o' money to get the advice you need to take care of yourself and make sure you are healthy, you have the power and means to do it all yourself. No gym required; I do all my exercising in my house, or on trails along the way.
Anyways, THANK YOU for the abundance of love on my set, and towards me in general! I hope to reciprocate that love for many years to come.
For those who don't know what I'm talking about, please feel free to take a look at the set!
Dormant Power
This was a shot that we didn't end up using in the set.

I was a little sad at first about the fact that I am on this site with no mods. I feel like an easy target for people to take note and judge that I'm not modded.

But then, I had someone point out that that is an insecurity that doesn't need to be there, and she's right... I am who I am, I will not change for anybody, and I should let my differences strengthen the bonds that I do have. Here, and in my life away from the computer. My whole life, I've had a problem with alienating myself from everyone else, especially when I feel that I don't belong to any one group or situation, but this is something that I am actively working on this year, a habit I will get rid of.
If I do decide to get a tattoo, I would love for it to be a variation of this:

I Love Dream catchers, and the story behind them. The mystical properties they are said to hold. They can be intimately personal, since its your dreams that get filtered through them. So, if I do tattoo myself, I will customize a dream catcher to put on my arm, with a profound persona message attached to it. We shall see. I'm terrified of needles!
Otherwise, I will live a mod-less life. I don't see the urgency in getting a tattoo or piercing for myself.
No matter what happens, I will be happy with who I am on the inside first and for most
I am slowly getting through the book titled: The Power of Now, by Eckhart Tolle. Its teaching me soo much about myself, and how I look at the world. A lot is about to change within myself, as I grow out of fear and into courage. (:
I am also starting to realize that it is your mind that constructs these fears and set backs that exist throughout our lives. It is the mind that tells you that you can or can't do something, that you will do something or won't do something, even if other people don't know your true motives.

I'm learning how to get rid of these perpetual mind sets, and learning to listen to the self within. Who am I really? I know I am not my mind. I am the loving soul inside this body. I am whatever the fuck I want to be! It's so great, being able to get my head out of my ass, and finally walk towards somewhere that I consider to carry meaning for myself. Not bound by the fears and road blocks of my mind.

I really like these pictures:







I am who I am,
I am enabled with all that I need to be happy.
Trusting myself, and going beyond the mind,
These two will ensure my safe arrival,
at a destination secret kept from societal bondage.
My wings present current growing pains,
but I know to withstand these pains,
I'll then be able to take on the world.
I've got a seed of magic and miracles,
residing within the fourth ventricle of my heart.
It speaks to me through light, and desire.
Won't let me fall beneath my own standards.
May I be known as a simple spirit with a big life task.
And,
Let it be known that I won't let you leave here without a broadened smile.
That's a fact!
Today my smiles are meant to be contagious.


I feel so pretty!


Luffy Loves you!!