2007 has started out just like every other year...SHITTY! In fact, I doubt this year is going to be fun at all. Except for my son being born in May I really have nothing to look forward to. I just found out I have to be out of the house on the 15th, so the lady here can work on her marriage with her crazy husband. Meaning, in a week I have no fucking place to go. Anyone wanna let a cute preggo chick come stay with them? hehehe. I already have enough stress in my life and this just makes everything much more worse. I haven't even had time to save money (I planned on being here til April) or had the time to look for a new apartment.
Eddy isn't helping me with anything. I'm doing this all by myself. I go on maternity leave in April and then I will have no income while I'm out. I don't go back to work til July and that's even if I can afford a sitter/daycare. Not to mention I will be paying for a place all on my own and all the medical bills. I just got back from my appointment and I had to dish out another 300 bucks to care for this baby. I wish he wouldn't be such an ass. I wouldn't even be in this situation if it weren't for him. I LEFT my apartment and gave up everything so we could get a place together and then as soon as I tell him I am pregnant he kicks me out. The thing that makes me mad is I was on birth control. I even took the ECP after we had sex to try to prevent becoming pregnant, even though it's nearly impossible for me to become so as I have really bad endometriosis and my right ovary is completely shot. I don't know how I got pregnant.
I'm surprised he's even taking me to my appointments. He hasn't done anything for the baby. I have already purchased a car seat, ordered a very nice 4 in 1 crib off overstock.com, have more than enough baby clothes for the first 0-6 months, have some diapers etc. etc. etc. He has done nothing. I can't wait to get his ass on child support. He tried to play the whole well I don't think it's mine thing which was really funny. He was the only one I had sex with in those three months, not to mention I knew the date of my last period, when I got the ECP (which failed) etc. It's all documented at my doctors office. I actually know the exact date I got pregnant, and I knew I was right away. I went in for my first test at the doctors office at only 2 weeks but I didn't have enough HCG in my blood for it to be positive. A week later I did the test again (inside a Fred Meyer's bathroom) and it didn't even take a second before it showed two lines. It was funny because my mother called me right after the second line showed up. I was like, "Guess what?" haha. She asked me when I found out and I said, "Oh about two seconds ago." My parents are awesome though. I can tell them anything. At least they are being supportive.
I honestly was not ready for a second child, but it is a blessing and I will treat him as such. I have had his name (Kai) picked out since the beginning.
I can't wait until he's here. I want so badly to touch his face and snuggle him. Plus, I'm getting pretty tired of carrying the little bugger. 
The good thing is I had quite a bit of money saved up in my HSA account which is helping me pay for the maternity bills. The birth will cost around $3,000. I'm keeping my chin up though. I've done this before and I'm sure I can do it again. I just wish the dad would take some responsibility.
I work all day next week, including Valentines Day. I only work a half day and after that I think I will go spend the rest of the day with the animals at the shelter. I'm sure they all would make very nice Valentines.
Eddy isn't helping me with anything. I'm doing this all by myself. I go on maternity leave in April and then I will have no income while I'm out. I don't go back to work til July and that's even if I can afford a sitter/daycare. Not to mention I will be paying for a place all on my own and all the medical bills. I just got back from my appointment and I had to dish out another 300 bucks to care for this baby. I wish he wouldn't be such an ass. I wouldn't even be in this situation if it weren't for him. I LEFT my apartment and gave up everything so we could get a place together and then as soon as I tell him I am pregnant he kicks me out. The thing that makes me mad is I was on birth control. I even took the ECP after we had sex to try to prevent becoming pregnant, even though it's nearly impossible for me to become so as I have really bad endometriosis and my right ovary is completely shot. I don't know how I got pregnant.
I'm surprised he's even taking me to my appointments. He hasn't done anything for the baby. I have already purchased a car seat, ordered a very nice 4 in 1 crib off overstock.com, have more than enough baby clothes for the first 0-6 months, have some diapers etc. etc. etc. He has done nothing. I can't wait to get his ass on child support. He tried to play the whole well I don't think it's mine thing which was really funny. He was the only one I had sex with in those three months, not to mention I knew the date of my last period, when I got the ECP (which failed) etc. It's all documented at my doctors office. I actually know the exact date I got pregnant, and I knew I was right away. I went in for my first test at the doctors office at only 2 weeks but I didn't have enough HCG in my blood for it to be positive. A week later I did the test again (inside a Fred Meyer's bathroom) and it didn't even take a second before it showed two lines. It was funny because my mother called me right after the second line showed up. I was like, "Guess what?" haha. She asked me when I found out and I said, "Oh about two seconds ago." My parents are awesome though. I can tell them anything. At least they are being supportive.
I honestly was not ready for a second child, but it is a blessing and I will treat him as such. I have had his name (Kai) picked out since the beginning.
I can't wait until he's here. I want so badly to touch his face and snuggle him. Plus, I'm getting pretty tired of carrying the little bugger.
The good thing is I had quite a bit of money saved up in my HSA account which is helping me pay for the maternity bills. The birth will cost around $3,000. I'm keeping my chin up though. I've done this before and I'm sure I can do it again. I just wish the dad would take some responsibility.
I work all day next week, including Valentines Day. I only work a half day and after that I think I will go spend the rest of the day with the animals at the shelter. I'm sure they all would make very nice Valentines.
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bottleslaughter:
hahaha, thats crazy, that sounded like me at the begining of this year..hahaha, but are you movin to a new house, new state?either or, i still like to move, change of things is always nice.
bottleslaughter:
well thats good you moved finally. i hope all is well kid