so as of next friday, I am once again moving. Back to the land of sandy beaches, year round summer, half naked chicks in bikinis and the ocean. With a new job on hold for me, and the possibility to continue to transform my life, it sounds like a dream come true. And yet......there's something to be said about snow and cold, pizza at three...
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samling:
how are you?
samling:
i did, i've just been thinking about how to respond. i do that sometimes.
It would appear that I will once again be moving. I got a job offer in Fl that's really too good to pass up. And while I'm happy to have the chance to make phenomanal money once more, I'm rather depressed that I have to give up living outside NYC. All my friends in FL are thrilled that I'm moving back though, so that's cool....
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samling:
sounds like you're really conflicted about this. can you do this job for a few months to help you out moneywise, and then move home?
boy did end up doing most the fixing. but i was the one that disassembled the car, and diagnosed the problem. i let him put it back together. but it was a fun day.
boy did end up doing most the fixing. but i was the one that disassembled the car, and diagnosed the problem. i let him put it back together. but it was a fun day.
samling:
i'm gonna get the kanji symbol for redemption on the back of my neck.
What a bizzzaree twist of fate. Spending Christmas in Ft. Laurderdale. No snow, 65 degrees and the possibillity of a new job. Now, I just moved out of here a little over a year ago to make money cause I couldn't make any here. And now it looks like I'm moving back. Curiouser and curiouser, Alice. 
I don't know why, but it seem's like I've been questioning everything lately. Love, money, happiness, power, religious thought, the eternal quest for the meaning of life. I can't decide if it's money, love and power or love, money and power or money, power and than love. I mean, what is love, really? Is it just an emotion? Is it a tangable thing? Is it...
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ohsoeuro:
I dont belive that there really is "love",like you said I think its a chemical inballance of the brain. Most people never really find love,I think they just settle down and say...no wait they make themselvs belive they have found it. I think its very hard to find "true" love. And only a handfull of people ever really experience it. Thats how I feel about at least.
samling:
wow, what a very thought provoking question. i'm not sure i know. but i knowi'm in love with the boy i'm with now, and he makes me dizzy with his energy. he's not rich, not the most beautiful(i don't tend to go for the boys that "know" they're cute...annoying.), but when i look at him, i see more then a human being. i see a spirit i've walked this world with before(3 times). and it was an instant, visceral need to be with him. it was nothing i've ever experienced. but i know i love him and want him in my life anyway he'll allow.
If I write this and no body reads it, did it really happen, or is it just a figment of my imagination? I suppose it's of little concequence either way. As long as the bitter taste of reality crosses my lips at least once a day, utter insanity remains on the other side of the razor blade I stay ever so delicately ballanced upon. Yet...
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wendy_time:
woah, philosophy-boy of the day!! 
i am utterly insane i think, and i sometimes let it all go. i think little lights on a christmas tree smother and fuel insanity, and this my friend, is why you should go and get one! for yourself, and to smell the pine sap goodness. 
i am utterly insane i think, and i sometimes let it all go. i think little lights on a christmas tree smother and fuel insanity, and this my friend, is why you should go and get one! for yourself, and to smell the pine sap goodness. BOREDBOREDBOREDBOREDBOREDBOREDBOREDBOREDBOREDBOREDBOREDBOREDBOREDBOREDBORED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
So I went down to the John Lennon memorial deal last night. Man, i've had some bizzare spiritual experiances before, but that had to be in the top 5. There was one point where the whole crowd in Central Park just went instantaly silent in total unison. Without prompting,without a word, they just stopped moving, stopped talking and listened to 1 guy sing. It...
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So I went down to the John Lennon memorial deal last night. Man, i've had some bizzare spiritual experiances before, but that had to be in the top 5. There was one point where the whole crowd in Central Park just went instantaly silent in total unison. Without prompting,without a word, they just stopped moving, stopped talking and listened to 1 guy sing. It...
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hyde:
I feel you
The time has come, the walrus said, to think of other things. Of shoes and ships and sealing wax, of cabbages and kings. And while the sea is boiling hot, and weather pigs have wings, caloo, calay, no work today, we're cabbages and kings.
So maybe I'm not a cabbage or king, but I'm possitively living in a world on nonsense. It has come to...
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So maybe I'm not a cabbage or king, but I'm possitively living in a world on nonsense. It has come to...
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samling:
being poor has taught me how to be very, very resourceful. and i'm thankful for that.
hyde:
Thanx for taking the time out to check out my site, glad you liked me stuff.
On meeting people, really there's no easy way. I'd suggest trying to join the regional groups and going to group events if that's the kind of thing you want to do. I think really it just takes time. It was over a year before I corresponded with people from this site long enough to want to meet any of them. We're friends maybe after a while I might want to hang out with you, but we'll see. I'm not a moron and you could be a psycho for all I know, ya know.
Good luck.
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On meeting people, really there's no easy way. I'd suggest trying to join the regional groups and going to group events if that's the kind of thing you want to do. I think really it just takes time. It was over a year before I corresponded with people from this site long enough to want to meet any of them. We're friends maybe after a while I might want to hang out with you, but we'll see. I'm not a moron and you could be a psycho for all I know, ya know.
Good luck.
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Home at last, home at last, thank God almighty I'm home at last!!!! No more endless wandering around the country. No more waiting to see where I'm going next or when I'll be back. My shop got approved yesterday, no more osha and epa violations. Now it's time to begin the new chapter in my life. HOOOORRRRRAAAAAYYYYY!!!!!!!!! Being back in Bayonne so totaly rocks!!! The...
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samling:
hahahhaa yeah...i'm from bambi. please shoot me and stuff me full of cubes of bread. that made me laugh...awesome.
www.adhl.org i work there. it's rad. and i would encourage it, but be forwarned that each state is different in their requirements. like here- you are supposed to have evidence to prove sobriety for 1 year before being registered as a counsler with the state. yeah..like some shrinks aren't smoking crack or anything. riiiight....
www.adhl.org i work there. it's rad. and i would encourage it, but be forwarned that each state is different in their requirements. like here- you are supposed to have evidence to prove sobriety for 1 year before being registered as a counsler with the state. yeah..like some shrinks aren't smoking crack or anything. riiiight....
hyde:
thanx for pulling for me.
What kinds O'stuffs you do with what you write?
What kinds O'stuffs you do with what you write?
I so need new friends in this area. Every time I get home for a couple days, I wind up walking around my neighborhood, which is cool and all, but I want to find out what else there is to do around here. I've done alot of stuff by my self since I got here like the museums and stuff. And I went down to...
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Home for the day then back to Baltimore in the morning. Very early in the morning. Like 3 a.m. in the morning. Well, at least it will be interesting. I just can't wait to be home for good.
Another hotel room, another town, another day goes by and you just wonder what it's really all about. The move to jersey was supposed to stop all this, but alas, I work for a company born in HELL that has spread it's evil upon the world. Today Baltimore, tomorrow home, Sunday back to Baltimore for a week and more of the same. More lies, more...
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samling:
i call those people dry drunks. they're the high school click that never grew up mentally.
and they suck.
you're gonna find that mentality in recovery and anywhere else. and they are NOT good people to be around.
yeah, i laid the tile a few weeks back, grouted it actually, not with grout, which wears away too quick(it was cheap crap), but with caulk. silicone caulk, and that's what i was scraping off. i do a lot of handy work. kinda gotta be self-reliant. *shrug*
and they suck.
you're gonna find that mentality in recovery and anywhere else. and they are NOT good people to be around.
yeah, i laid the tile a few weeks back, grouted it actually, not with grout, which wears away too quick(it was cheap crap), but with caulk. silicone caulk, and that's what i was scraping off. i do a lot of handy work. kinda gotta be self-reliant. *shrug*
samling:
aww, you shouldn't refuse it.
i *love* ice cream. does that count?
i *love* ice cream. does that count?
Why is it so wrong to kill people? I mean, there has to be certain limitations, of course. You shouldn't be able to kill with out just cause, say for instance your company screws you out of $1800 dollars after you've been killing yourself for them for over 2 years. And moving repeatedly for them also. That would be just cause, right? I certainly hope...
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samling:
i just read what you posted in sobriety a couple of days ago. i was wondering why no one's said anything.
then i came in here. if this is your outlet to vent, thank the gods you do. because i would be pissed too, if i were in your shoes. you're right, most people would start telling you how live is a struggle, a roller coaster ride, on and on. i don't think you wanna hear anymore of that... so here-
***HUG****
then i came in here. if this is your outlet to vent, thank the gods you do. because i would be pissed too, if i were in your shoes. you're right, most people would start telling you how live is a struggle, a roller coaster ride, on and on. i don't think you wanna hear anymore of that... so here-
***HUG****
wendy_time:
i wrote this same entry 2 months ago, but substitute 1800 for 3400. the fire will cease, sort of...okay, it won't really.