lucidd

[t-minus 1 week]

i cant believe im graduating so soon. i swear to god yesterday i had like a year left. ill be glad to be done with school though. itll be easier to make projects for my own portfolio rather than a class requirement. i figured out a pretty crude snowboarding mod in unreal today that i think could be pretty badass.
found some...
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bokbokbokbokbokbokbok
mcchrisownz
i wanna go to an mcchris show
and since he tours im goin tonite


also off to boston for the weekend for sis's graduation. rock. peace out phx.

got out of the city.

went north to payson for the weekend. camping was excellent, despite being drenched the last nite. met some crazy locals with all sorts of redneckin toys [ak47, quads, rompin truck] went out to where fire in the sky happened or was filmed or both. i cant remember cause i was too drunk when bob the redneck told me, and i...
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evolution

what we need now is a new renaissance. we need for our culture to focus on art and move towards a society that is trying to reach its potential. our creative limits. lets see what mankind can really fucking do. this sit around, get fat and pollute the world shit is lame, plain n simple.

They Might Be Giants Lyrics - Wearing A Raincoat
is a thoroughly amusing song which i highly recommend.

that scent
that closeness of flesh
my vicinity entranced
an impulse for desire
a flicker
a cease of motion
decaying seperation

that fucking scent

i woke up to screaming that i can only deduce to be a lucky-ass hole in one on the par 3 behind my apartment. i then proceeded to go back to sleep for a medley of dreams that weren't very exceptional. Although there was one that was, back in the drunken stages of my sleep.
My cat is curently determined to get into Beez's lizard's...
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怎樣做我快車它
我的身体需要你
我的頭腦渴望你
我的心等侯

[simple & truth]

last nite i dreamt of you and i
a cliched setting, you about to fly
our hands touch
my stomach drops
we're at the end, no words are said
just one warm hug, 3 lockings of lips
an all knowing smile,
have a nice trip.

[why wake up]

the drive home from Sunrise was ironically set in a moonlit landscape. also to be noted, i opted to not play gameboy the return trip and went into a triplike state. i was psyched that we could puff in the car on the way too. i dunno, it was probably the scenery. this one valley on US 60 is crazy at nite, especially with a...
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sleeplessness
this rest unfinished
a toss and a turn
and sheets are thrown
im up again

stillness of the nite
my apartment barely lit
a deficit in my attention
eyes wont stay shut
and im up again

sans hope
my thoughts are scattered
like dreaming, barely lucid
still without control
and im up
again.



random insomnia. i just wanna sleep. motoko's squeaking about playing fetch,...
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[jolly good]
ahh the xmas season is upon us, time to lock all our doors, board up our windows and turn on the motion sensor defense units, for robot santa rides on the eve of xmas.
my life has reached a comfortable level. i feel satisfied in my existense. contentment is all i really want. its already fluttered past once, a relapse into fear and...
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