Despite the fact I'm always surrounded I can't help but feel really fucking lonely. Toying with emotions is no fun, please stop.
I sometimes wish I wasn't so hesitant.
I also wish I didn't have to deal with everything that's been dropped on my head in the past 48 hours.
But this makes my day better for about 3 minutes and 45 seconds...
I need a bottle of vodka. Please.
I'm not a fan of this overwhelming amount of homework I have to do.
Or the fact I don't have enough money to pay my bills anymore.
Or the fact I haven't eaten today due to the lack of money.
-_-
Its days like these I would really just like to down a bottle of some kind of liquor and lay on the floor and attempt to forget that life exists. Just for a few hours please.
I sometimes wish I wasn't so hesitant.
I also wish I didn't have to deal with everything that's been dropped on my head in the past 48 hours.
But this makes my day better for about 3 minutes and 45 seconds...
I need a bottle of vodka. Please.
I'm not a fan of this overwhelming amount of homework I have to do.
Or the fact I don't have enough money to pay my bills anymore.
Or the fact I haven't eaten today due to the lack of money.
-_-
Its days like these I would really just like to down a bottle of some kind of liquor and lay on the floor and attempt to forget that life exists. Just for a few hours please.
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Once the semester winds down it'll be easier.
*hugs*
I hate money, sometimes I wish I just had magical unlimited amount. Its not like Im a terribly evil person so I dont see why not! Its month end and moneys stupid tight right now cause Im moving, all the bill changes and damage deposits and rent and paying movers and cost of shit has really piled up to the point Ive exhausted my bank account entirely, save for a small tincy nearly useless amount. Im moving saturday, its thursday and my place looks like a warzone, as if someone threw a couple of frag grenades through the window. I paid for movers, I wish there was such a company I could pay to pack up my place and unpack my place as well. Unforuntly even if they did exist I couldnt afford them. The stress is almost unbarable. Lets slap school and work on top of that too. The idea of suicide never crosses my mind though, the stress an anger manifest themselfves more in a homicidal way with the urge to kill other people instead!
Plan B, Im gona rob a bank, cross into the states pick you up and we are going to mexico.
If theres room on that floor, move over, we are gona need a bigger bottle of booze.