So I had a long post typed up about what's happened this last week between me, my ex Dana and her roommate Sheena. But I really can't do it justice in words. Suffice it to say that my life is very complicated right now, and could potentially get even more complicated depending upon how things work out.
A basic rundown is this: last Friday night... Read More
Alright, enough of this sadbrains bullshit. I need to start peeling back the layers separating me from the world.
Here are some of my problems:
1) I have a very thick mental filter that prevents me from talking very much. Specifically, it prevents me from talking to strangers. I need to find some middle ground between where I'm at and where my dad is at.... Read More
I agree with number 4. Ever since I've known you, and I will admit that I was scared to open up and create more chances to learn, you've been a huge mystery. Sometimes I thought you were trying to avoid telling me about yourself because I wasn't as interesting as you or you didn't want to share who you are with me. So I decided not to ask.
Sigh, I wish I could afford a therapist. Just once (or a few times, really), it would be nice to be able to just unload on someone. It would especially be nice to do so without worrying about judgment being passed. One thing that's always been missing from my life is someone I can just completely open up to.
Well fuck, I just lost my best friend indefinitely. The ex dropped by tonight to tell me that she's still not over me (and broke up with her boyfriend of several months because of it) and that she needs minimal contact with me for as long as it takes for her to sort herself out.
This is going to be kind of disjointed, but I feel like I should be writing on here more often.
I need to develop some hobbies. The highlight of my night was finding a strainer (that cost twenty-fucking-two dollars) with a fine enough mesh to rinse quinoa. I also picked up some bottles of garam masala, turmeric and cardamom, and two pounds of lentils,... Read More
I'm finally in the financial position to buy furniture, but I can't decide what the fuck I want. Basically, I'm torn between a spacious (but yet relatively low seat count), lounging-friendly sectional sofa, or a higher seat count sofa and loveseat combination. If I planned on never, ever having people over to my apartment I'd be on the sectional in a heartbeat, but... Read More
It's almost hard to believe that it's been nearly three months since my last entry. I started and then scrapped probably at least a couple dozen entries, but never was satisfied. I'm kind of anal about my writing - most of it strikes me as insufficiently expressive and/or overly self-indulgent - so most of it gets thrown out the window.
aw corgis are awesome i love their tails...one day i'll have 2 totally opposite dogs...like a corgi and a great dane and take them on walks together. i have 2 labs and a beagle..the beagle thinks hes a lap dog -_-
Yesterday I finally was able to get through to the property manager for Midtown Crossing, and turned in my application and paid my deposit. So, barring any unforeseen problems, I should be set for a new apartment in December! They might not have it ready until the second, rather than the first, of the month, but that shouldn't create any problems. I'm fucking stoked.
I was doing some reading today and I came across this tidbit that I really like:
We human beings are 100 percent committed every waking moment of our lives.
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Most of us think our lives would work better if we were more committed. The problem isn't our degree of commitment but what we are actually committed to. It may be very uncomfortable to admit... Read More
Sometimes I wish I was an alcoholic. Liquor is my muse. As at least one of my readers can attest to, when I hit just the right level of inebriation I have a way with words. My analytic self shuts down and I can just be. These instances are when I have my best nights.
Friday night, a celebration of Amarillo's birthday, was... Read More
lol i am glad you had fun at my bday. dude, you are freaking awesome when you dance. i was impressed. and i think the atmosphere helped... it being a gay club and all .
married couples? lame? does that mean i'm lame too?
wanna hang out and do nothing this weekend? pizza and movies? the hubs'll be gone but we can chill.
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