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Tuesday Oct 10, 2006

Oct 9, 2006
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god im sick of it all right now..

i can't believe that im losing sleep over this right now.. it's 4fucking am.. i haven't slept a wink all night.. as a matter of fact i dont even think i can go to sleep..
i was late for work again yesterday, which makes me feel like even more of a fuck up..
my band kicked me out this past weekend and is now attacking me personally..
and this is what has me not sleeping... stupid i know.

my mind is racing at a thousand miles per hour trying to think of ways to defend myself and stick up for myself but really, i don't even want to try.. im tired of defending myself because minds are already made up and things have already been said that make me want to just scream.. i still want to keep my character in all of this though..

im at the end of my patience right now.. but i think im going to defend myself one last time.. i don't want to keep it going but i've got to at least stand my ground..
at the very least.. i know what personality types to avoid in the future.

life is fucked..


concentrate..
one step at a time..
and beg for change..
because the moments passing by..

a frightened boy sheds his skin..

reaching for you..
outstretched hand..
trying to make sense of this..

a frightened boy sheds his skin..
a frightened boy sheds his skin again..
leyla:
don't be frightened...
things are changing but you need this,
Oct 12, 2006

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