what is love...??
do i really know.. have i ever had it? thought i did once....thought i could comprimise several times after that.. now that i see things a bit more clearly.. don't know if "that once" was real or not...is love sex.. don't think so.. is love being perfectly content w/ being silent in the same room.. does it hurt... does it make you so happy you cry..does it feel perfect... hmmm.. thoughts race at these times.. at the moment.. the moment i've come to accept and cherish.. not dwell on past present future tensees... just now.. just here.. no place like home.. no place like here, right now.. even though i sit here now.. alone.. in the middle of the night..
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Im ok.. im ok w/ being 30 and not feeling like it.. im ok w/ letting my old life go for better things.. im ok now w/ giving 110% of what i have to a cause i believe in.. im ok w/ getting hurt and bruised, emotionally as well as physically and mentally.. sometimes emotional risks hurt.. im ok w/ that.. im ok w/ not taking things so seriously anymore.. and im especially ok w/ not taking things directly to my heart.. i know other people can be just as impulsive as i am.. i know they can say things they don't mean just to get a point across in a heated moment.. im just ok now.. im happy being ok.. even though the life im leaving behind is falling apart.. im just ok w/ that.. im ok.. im making new friends and opening up to people.. im making new close friends.. things are good..
do i really know.. have i ever had it? thought i did once....thought i could comprimise several times after that.. now that i see things a bit more clearly.. don't know if "that once" was real or not...is love sex.. don't think so.. is love being perfectly content w/ being silent in the same room.. does it hurt... does it make you so happy you cry..does it feel perfect... hmmm.. thoughts race at these times.. at the moment.. the moment i've come to accept and cherish.. not dwell on past present future tensees... just now.. just here.. no place like home.. no place like here, right now.. even though i sit here now.. alone.. in the middle of the night..
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Im ok.. im ok w/ being 30 and not feeling like it.. im ok w/ letting my old life go for better things.. im ok now w/ giving 110% of what i have to a cause i believe in.. im ok w/ getting hurt and bruised, emotionally as well as physically and mentally.. sometimes emotional risks hurt.. im ok w/ that.. im ok w/ not taking things so seriously anymore.. and im especially ok w/ not taking things directly to my heart.. i know other people can be just as impulsive as i am.. i know they can say things they don't mean just to get a point across in a heated moment.. im just ok now.. im happy being ok.. even though the life im leaving behind is falling apart.. im just ok w/ that.. im ok.. im making new friends and opening up to people.. im making new close friends.. things are good..
I'd thought I'd been in love before...then I fell for someone who made me realize it hadn't been love at all...now I've sorta stumbled for a guy who makes me see that even if that HAD been love...it wasn't. Know what I mean?
I'm ok too
As for being alone (insert pet name here), that's bullshit. I'm always with you!
*barf*