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All is well. I took what you guys ssaid into consideration and talked to Chase about the whole thing. He ashurs me that sleeping with me was not his original intent and that the things he said to me were true. Even with that being said we've agreed to never let it happen again under these circumstances and also to never mention it again. He really is a sweet guy and I trust him. As for the birth control, no need to worry I can't stand taking the pill but I use a condom ever single time, under the influence or not. Thank you for your comments. It's nice to know you care .
Today I took a Math and English placement exam for Grossmont College. Sigh . I did great on the English portion. I was sure of every answer. The math portion however . I don't mean to be cliche but I failed the fuck out of that. I'm not bad at math. I don't hate it. I've gotten no lower grade than a B in all of my math classes. The thing is that I can never remember any of it past the first month I learn it. There were 4 types of math tests. Basic, Elementary (Algebra 1ish), Intermediate (Algebra 2ish with some Trig), and Calculus. I got an A in Algebra 2 so I figured I could take the intermediate test and do fine. I was really really wrong. I have never done so badly on a test in my life. I actually got physically ill while taking it. When I was half way through the test most people had already finished taking it. Of coarse most of those people were taking Basic and Elementary but still. I got really nervous that I wouldn't finish in time. So I start to rush and then I notice that the problems are starting to look very foreign and I don't remember the formulas for any of them. after about another 1/2 hour goes by and I'm one of like 6 people still in the room I just guess fill. This is going to fuck up everything. I literally turned in my test, when to the bathroom and vomited. I'm really just trying not to think about it right now. What will be will be you know? I can't change it now so...fuck it. I'm going swimming.

p.s. whoohoo for a free full tank of gas provided buy my usually broke as fuck boyfriend. 60 bux for my tank. gotta love him