love_suicide

i have felt like shit lately. anger problems stemming from stress, mostly related to money issues. i wish things would go better for me. this was supposed to be MY year. at least that's what the chinese zodiac said. but it's already august & so far my year's been for shit. i don't know what needs to change. i don't know if school will help. gabriel proposed a break where he would take the kids & stay with his grandfather for a few days or a week, to give me time to relax & think. i don't know if that would help us or hurt us. i'm scared to try it, but at the same time, i feel like a break might be just what i need right now. it wouldn't help my money problems, but at least i could keep the house clean & go out once in a while. but i know i would miss the kids...and gabriel? i don't know...i won't miss the fighting, but maybe if he was gone i would miss him again like i did when he was in FL. any input?