i got the news today that gabriel has pretty much squared away an apartment (2 bedroom, 2 bath) & a job (at the marina) in pensacola, FL, about 10 minutes from the beach. so, here's our chance at that new life we wanted, that fresh start. new place, new faces, new opportunities. it's not miami (where the midwifery school is), but it's closer than gordo & a hell of a lot more interesting & beautiful than gordo.
i know most people who read my blogs regularly will think i'm crazy for deciding to give things with gabriel another chance, but i can't deny that i still have a lot of love for him & he's showing me more & more the things he is willing to do for us (us as a couple & us as a family). he has even decided to sell his nice big new amp to secure the deposit on the apartment. it's a meaningful sacrifice coming from gabriel (i know that amp means a lot to him as a musician). he told me that his amp meant a lot, but it's replaceable & that i & his kids are not. he said we were more important to him than a piece of musical equipment. this is a huge step for him from when i was pregnant & felt like i was number 5 on his list of priorities in life, after guitar, playstation, work, & friends. i'm really starting to think he's growing up & realizing that i am a good person & deserve to be treated as such. and i believe i owe him the same respect that he is offering me, so i'm going to reciprocate.
so, that's the new deal...the kiddos & i will probably go down in 2 weeks or so. maybe a little less or more, depending on our money & bills situation. now i'm working on a to do list for moving (find new doctors, apply for FL medicaid & food stamps, etc.)
oh, and i'm also whitening my teeth...seeing if Rembrandt works. i hope so, because i want to look good for my beautiful Skye who is coming to visit tonight, barring any random acts of nature or the powers that be.
i know most people who read my blogs regularly will think i'm crazy for deciding to give things with gabriel another chance, but i can't deny that i still have a lot of love for him & he's showing me more & more the things he is willing to do for us (us as a couple & us as a family). he has even decided to sell his nice big new amp to secure the deposit on the apartment. it's a meaningful sacrifice coming from gabriel (i know that amp means a lot to him as a musician). he told me that his amp meant a lot, but it's replaceable & that i & his kids are not. he said we were more important to him than a piece of musical equipment. this is a huge step for him from when i was pregnant & felt like i was number 5 on his list of priorities in life, after guitar, playstation, work, & friends. i'm really starting to think he's growing up & realizing that i am a good person & deserve to be treated as such. and i believe i owe him the same respect that he is offering me, so i'm going to reciprocate.
so, that's the new deal...the kiddos & i will probably go down in 2 weeks or so. maybe a little less or more, depending on our money & bills situation. now i'm working on a to do list for moving (find new doctors, apply for FL medicaid & food stamps, etc.)
oh, and i'm also whitening my teeth...seeing if Rembrandt works. i hope so, because i want to look good for my beautiful Skye who is coming to visit tonight, barring any random acts of nature or the powers that be.
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