love_suicide

my mom stepped in yesterday & kept the kids for a while so i could take a nice long bath & a nap. i felt better after. she kept katana overnight & kagome slept here just like a baby should (all night). i didn't go to sleep until after 10am, but i didn't have to get up until 6:30ish, so i felt well-rested. then i went to mom's & ate steak which my dad cooked on the grill (awesome). i even ate 2 meals last night, which is a big step for me. my mom loaned my some money today, so i could get my Klonopin refill ($25) & 5 ambien pills ($30). why does ambien have to be so damn expensive!? anywho, i'm home now & had a positively glorious phone conversation with a new friend & felt quite peaceful afterwards. it's strange that michael isn't here. i had gotten so used to him being around, but i'm feeling better physically & mentally...and working on the emotional part. meeting the divorce lawyer thursday & have a lot of things to discuss with him. i hope it doesn't end up too pricy. i'm sure my money issues will work out thanks to family & friends who care. i love you all. i'll be up late tonight & i'm anticipating a visit from my friend/cousin, nikki. that should be nice because it's been a while since we've hung out. don't forget to add my new ids on yahoo, especially bittersweet_kai.