love_suicide

so far i know of 4 halloween parties tonight. i am thinking of making an appearance at all 4 & changing costumes for each one. that should be fun.

i had a nice night last night. i got to hang out with Nikki, which is somewhat rare these days, and we reminisced a lot & cheered each other up as needed. i love you, Nikki!...
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not much is new here. i had a really awesome time last night with jonah at the station. we danced a lot! his feet (from jumping around) & my ass (from bouncing around) are sore! i gauged my ears down to a 8 last night & pierced my left eyebrow. oh & i redyed my hair bright pink. i'll upload some pix later.

my dad...
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i'm a little saner...& a little sexier.

seriously though, i'm doing okay. i gave the gun to my dad, bought 2 wedding dresses the other day, dyed my hair black again, going to see TYPE fucking O fucking NEGATIVE next month, & am quite interested in someone special right now. and even though i doubt he reads these things, i'm not going to throw his...
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Psychoanalyze Yourself; Answer the following questions with the first thought that comes to mind. Then read which each answer means. (No cheating! )


1. You are not alone. You are walking in the woods. Who is with you?
Kyle

2. You are walking in the woods. You see an animal. What kind of animal?
a large black panther

3. What interaction takes place between you...
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aug. 17th: highly depressed, but spent a pleasant evening with Trey
aug. 18th: slightly depressed, but spent a pleasant evening with Trey, Kelly, Fred, & Frankie
aug. 19th: somewhat depressed, worried about & dreading the first day of class
aug. 20th: stressed, 1st day of class...attended half the class & then withdrew from school, spent the late evening hours saving a life (helped with the...
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i started a new anti-depressant medication a few days ago. it's called Doxepin or Sinequan. i take one pill at bedtime. but for the past two days, i have been overly emotional, to the point of sobbing uncontrollably and feeling suicidal. does anyone have any knowledge or experience with this drug that they can share with me? i don't know if the drug has caused...
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sobbing, i hung up the phone with him. i didn't know if it was the weight of money problems, family problems, or the fact that my dreams & hopes with him had been shatterred.

you never know how much you love someone until they are gone. it has been said 10,000 before & will be said 10,000,000 times again as long as this earth keeps...
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today was kagome's birthday party. i overslept because i took an elavil last night because my stomach was hurting. i went to mom's & did some cleaning. gabe helped. then we went & hung balloons on poles & stuff. the party went well. kagome got some lovely gifts including a walker/rider, a pooh-bear water baby, a toy tv remote, some clothes, & more. i had...
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so, yeah...i'm still pretty fucking stressed out. we still haven't found a babysitter for the first week & 1/2 of school because Michael won't be back yet. plus he's bringing a gf back with him from AK & i don't know how she'll feel about him babysitting so much for me, but i NEED him to do it. i hope everything works out. i'm on...
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i have felt like shit lately. anger problems stemming from stress, mostly related to money issues. i wish things would go better for me. this was supposed to be MY year. at least that's what the chinese zodiac said. but it's already august & so far my year's been for shit. i don't know what needs to change. i don't know if school will help....
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I slept really late today & now the day is almost over. Inuyasha & I have argued a bit & it caused us to miss a chance at hanging out with a friend today. That sucks balls. I had planned to drive to Tuscaloosa (using the gas money i borrowed from Mom) to ask Ryan or his parents for some money to help us out....
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