Everything has been so crazy lately. Quitting my job, up and moving downtown, getting a new job, finding an apartment, meeting so many people.. I still can't believe how much time has gone on.
In the blink of an eye, my whole life is different.
A friend of mine recently looked at me and blatantly asked, "when did caressa fucking mrak allow the world to make her so afraid?" It knocked me on my ass.
So I packed up, dyed my hair blue, moved to chicago, and got a job as a barista at a wonderful coffee shop.
Being in chi again has been so eye opening for me. I feel this wonderful period of growth coming on. I love the creativity and culture here. I can feel myself changing and becoming more comfortable. I've been working so hard on me, on realizing and trying to fix such negative, awful behaviors. I've been struggling with loving me, who I am. Not changing to please other people. To speak up, to be brave, to be fire and soul. A friend of mine and I were talking and he said something about how we really have to get over this idea of forever because in the end, we're going to die. And it's not that far off.
I want to be fearless. I want to be wild. I want to be the wolf I was always born to be.
Also being in Chicago is so cool just for the art hub. If anyone knows of any photographers or any other hopeful ladies or sgs want to shoot or even be friends, hit me up, let's get coffee, grab lunch, get lots of beer, or find a cool new place to toke!
I hope you're all doing wonderful and living happy little lives where someone compliments you everyday.
x Loup
